Encouragement5 min read

Today may be our one year anniversary as a group, and we will be celebrating later with a lot of special releases, but I wanted to share something with everyone first.

I had the pleasure of getting an email from a fan this last week that really spoke to me. She wrote to us to encourage US because she had seen all the stuff we went through on our Tumblr. After we shut down the Discord, she wanted to let us know how much we meant to her.

As I said before, these fans are the ones that keep us going. However, within our emails back and forth, there was a message that I wanted to let everyone know of.

This was my statement to her, and just like us, I know there are many others out there that need the same encouragement.

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Thank you for the love. I’m going to get a little personal, so bare with me.

Addis here, by the way. Most of us within the group battle depression and anxiety.

There are a lot of times where I have thought that maybe, just maybe, no one would care if I just didn’t exist anymore.

When I was 14, I tried killing myself for the first time because I felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere and that no one would care if I was gone. Luckily, my sister caught me before I swallowed the handful of pills I had in my hand. I don’t know how long I stared at those pills in my palm before I finally decided just to take them.

After that moment, when my sister caught me, I was able to see exactly who cared about me and who didn’t. It’s sad to say it was an eye opener even though I was only 14.

The second time was when I was 16 and no one stopped me then. I apparently took too little and just had a major stomach ache for days. >.<

During those years after I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I was told to try to find an outlet that would help with calming my nerves and sorting out everything in my head. (I tend to think too much and micromanage everything.)

One of the outlets I found was reading, and of course, I went back to the manga I had stopped paying attention to. Reading, and seeing another world through the eyes of someone else’s imagination was, to me, something that created wonder and a calming atmosphere. I would find myself binge reading manga and novels to the point that I could sit in the same spot for almost 8 hours without moving. (Later found out that it wasn’t actually a good thing, but hey, it kept me sane. XD)

I managed to bring my depression under control with therapists, medication, reading and making that one friend in life who doesn’t care whether I’m crazy or not. She’s happy with who I am.

I’m not saying any of this to make you feel bad for me or for yourself, but I AM saying this to let you know, you are not alone. There is always someone out there that will reach out a hand to you even when you feel your feet sinking in the sand.

I know how hard both anxiety and depression are to control. Even though I’m 25, I still have my moments where everything gets to me and I just don’t even want to get out of bed.

But, when I was 24, I made a leap of faith and asked to join a new scan group to help with cleaning. I was accepted and, after finding out how much I loved it, I created Exiled Rebels.

Somehow, I’m not even sure how, I gained so many volunteers who wanted to help me start out. First we were only five and then, now, a year later, we’ve become a massive thirty five with two separate sections of translators.

Each and everyone of the girls (and guys) within my group have taught me something. Even when we are running behind schedule, even when our real lives are so hectic we don’t even want to talk, there is something I tell all of them.

Don’t give up.

Giving up is an ending. It’s you admitting defeat, not to just what you’re working on, but you’re giving up on yourself. So please, and this comes from my heart, don’t give up. Start with baby steps to get whatever you may be working on started again.

I know it sounds lame, but each step forward is a step toward a goal. No matter what that goal may be, create one. Maybe have one for the first month of something really easy and increase it until you can get back up on your feet (figuratively and literally).

I see your (and everyone else’s) comments everywhere and I read each and every one of them.

Tumblr was closed down because it was bringing back my anxiety and depression. Now, our discord as well is being shut down for the same reason.

To my group, I am the backbone, the foundation, and if I crumbled, so would the entire group. I do not want that, so I am distancing myself from the negativity of those two worlds.

Thank you so much for the love and support, it has been noticed.

Don’t give up, keep fighting.

Love,
Addis

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Xiaoxiang
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Thank you for this and you guys too, thanks for everything <3

Kay
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sankyu,
sankyu,
sankyu..
😢😫😢😢 u guys really awesome..dont be discourage, dont be despair.yes! be happy, be positive be possible🙆
sankyu😘

Hjamesp
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hjamesp

Thanks for sharing it with us

One1207
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one1207

Dear Addis and members of Exiled Rebel

Thank you for this (seriously i need it) and Thank you so much for doing all the awesome job that i had enjoyed this past few months.. especially for LMW and MW(R). May all the happiness be there for you.

ShanLiang
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ShanLiang

Hi, to be honest, I’m not someone that knows how to comfort people. When my roommate was bawling due to homesickness, I can only pat her back awkwardly. But, I just want to take this chance to say that, I’m grateful that you’re willing to share such a personal thing with us. I admire your bravery in doing this, and in battling your anxiety and depression. Being slightly anti-social, thus closing myself off from my surrounding most of the time, I cannot say that I understand what you guys have gone through and still have to go through, but please… Read more »

Corensi
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Corensi

That message was beautiful. Thanks so much for all your hard work and determination in the projects you do. I want you guys to know that you are all very much appreciated, and that this little reader supports you! I hope you overcome your depression and anxiety. You lovely people don’t deserve to suffer under them, so good luck and thank you for everything!

MiraLynik
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MiraLynik

Thank you for everything that you’ve done. I hope you continue to feel better about yourself. Your translations have helped me deal with the horrible amounts of stress that come with multiple clubs, schoolwork, and searching for a job. It makes me happy to see that I am not alone with my struggles and that there are others with situations that are even worse.
Good luck on your future projects! 😊

Claau1234
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Claau1234

Thank you so so so much! ❤❤❤

Jemie13
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jemie13

THANK YOU

Ryiryi
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ryiryi

Thank you. Believe me your works brighten my day, like a lot. I woke up with a smile when i saw notification on my emails of update. Even if there no updates that’s fine too. I treat it like receiving a birthday present. 🙂 Im struggling with bipolar and had extreme high & low which leave me exhausted almost on daily basis. I had to constantly remind myself to keep on fighting. But yes, getting away from any sort of negativity is important to stay balance. So you guys just do whatever that is best for you. Fighting!!! 😀

Wag2wag
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wag2wag

Happy Anniversary ExR!

Thank you to all the staff for awesome releases thus far and advance thanks for more in the future.

ExR is one of my favorite group not only for the consistent update but also the tidbit you hold like fanart contest and such. Keep up the positivity and the good work.

Marialee
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We love you so much, you’re so awesome. keep fighting we’ll be with you till the very end❤️❤️❤️

Yukiakira
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yukiakira

Thank you for write this out addis.😊😊 I had my moment in the dark part of live too. When i was high school, i often grab a scissor and try to stab myself with it. I feel the same with you, feels like nobody care about me and nobody will care even if i was gone. The worst part is i feel like they will be happier if i gone. Maybe im too coward but i didnt do it in the end (really good thing!) I think mine is not as bad as your. Lol cos i didnt go to… Read more »

Eli
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Eli

Happy anniversary Exr 🎊
And thanks you so much for your hard work
Please be strong and always be happy 💪
U deserve to be happy bcoz u make me happy when i reading your translation
Believe me I’m always waiting for every new chapter
and you know what I’m almost 40
Someone in my age shouldn’t read all of this but u make me feel younger
And lastly thank you again 😘

Lilly
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Lilly

Thank you for all the hard work that all of you guys do for us fans. It is always a continuous battle against depression and I hope you always have the advantages. Although I really do appreciate all the hard work, I hope that it does not prevent you guys from living a normal life like others. Enjoy life and things that life brings ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Delimanjoo
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Delimanjoo

Thanks for sharing your story. My best friends have been through anxiety and depression as well and it was tough for me to help as it’s difficult for people who haven’t experienced it to truly understand what depression and anxiety is all about. I was only able to just sit with them or stay on the phone and just be there even if I didn’t know what to say to make them feel better. I’m just grateful that they found the strength within themselves to keep moving forward and overcome it day by day. So I just want to offer… Read more »

Nanase08
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nanase08

Don’t give up guys and keep moving forward. Even though there are many negativity all around, you just have to keep moving forward because it is self fulfilling and rewarding. With even a small thank you means big actually.
Thank you for working hard with all the over load schedules.

Aurelgavey
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aurelgavey

I’m with you guys~ Thankyou for sharing this with us, even though we can’t see each other here, i feel like you guys are more closer. Don’t worry too much, we have each other’s backs here.♡

Cridale
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Cridale

Thank you for for you and for you guys for the hard works 💕 I love you and you guys artworks. The truth back then i’m got Depression and Anxiety, because i’m always thinking i’m not worthy for my parents and my friends, and i’m always thought many people don’t like me But my friend told me “Don’t think yourself useless, they dont care about that. Because what they care about is because this is you, and if you think many people hate you. hey, atleast there still people who likes you, one of them it’s me, always remember ‘you… Read more »

Youkaime
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youkaime

Thank you so much for sharing this. This message is very important. I can relate a lot because I went through the same. And I have to say. this site keeps me alive, keeps me positive, as I’m waiting for new chapters in excitement and it helps me to forget all the bad things. You guys are blessed ♥

Kosourbites
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kosourbites

Thank you for sharing. Addis, your story made me really emotional and teary. It’s awesome how this group was able to grow so much and I hope that you guys continue to be well and do what you love.

Agnes olivia
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Agnes olivia

Hello there 🙂 thank you so much for sharing these wonderfull babies with us. We are so gratefull that we could get our hands on these precious scanlations. And after i read what had happened to you, your battle, i have to say that you are such a fighter. And lastly i’m glad that i stumbled upon this scanlation. Luv u guyss ^___^

Malkesta
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malkesta

Thank you so much for sharing this with us, and thank you for all the beautiful work that you do.
Your translations bring happiness to a lot of people, and we wish to share this happiness with you in return.
So thank you, thank a 1000 times.

Cccrow
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Cccrow

I’m not good with words and I’m pretty new on this site but I really love u guys and I’ve always feel very very happy just to see an translation update!
I really love ExR and thank you for your hardwork and everything!!🙏❤️

lucy43954
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Your soo strong 💪 for not giving up 😊😊😊
before I read manga and novel I feels that I’m alone, and no one will ever care about me ( yes I now that I’m dermic) but really after I described manga and novel and then BL novel I have that feeling that I’m not alone 😊😊

So thank you all for your hard work

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