Encouragement5 min read

Today may be our one year anniversary as a group, and we will be celebrating later with a lot of special releases, but I wanted to share something with everyone first.

I had the pleasure of getting an email from a fan this last week that really spoke to me. She wrote to us to encourage US because she had seen all the stuff we went through on our Tumblr. After we shut down the Discord, she wanted to let us know how much we meant to her.

As I said before, these fans are the ones that keep us going. However, within our emails back and forth, there was a message that I wanted to let everyone know of.

This was my statement to her, and just like us, I know there are many others out there that need the same encouragement.

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Thank you for the love. I’m going to get a little personal, so bare with me.

Addis here, by the way. Most of us within the group battle depression and anxiety.

There are a lot of times where I have thought that maybe, just maybe, no one would care if I just didn’t exist anymore.

When I was 14, I tried killing myself for the first time because I felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere and that no one would care if I was gone. Luckily, my sister caught me before I swallowed the handful of pills I had in my hand. I don’t know how long I stared at those pills in my palm before I finally decided just to take them.

After that moment, when my sister caught me, I was able to see exactly who cared about me and who didn’t. It’s sad to say it was an eye opener even though I was only 14.

The second time was when I was 16 and no one stopped me then. I apparently took too little and just had a major stomach ache for days. >.<

During those years after I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I was told to try to find an outlet that would help with calming my nerves and sorting out everything in my head. (I tend to think too much and micromanage everything.)

One of the outlets I found was reading, and of course, I went back to the manga I had stopped paying attention to. Reading, and seeing another world through the eyes of someone else’s imagination was, to me, something that created wonder and a calming atmosphere. I would find myself binge reading manga and novels to the point that I could sit in the same spot for almost 8 hours without moving. (Later found out that it wasn’t actually a good thing, but hey, it kept me sane. XD)

I managed to bring my depression under control with therapists, medication, reading and making that one friend in life who doesn’t care whether I’m crazy or not. She’s happy with who I am.

I’m not saying any of this to make you feel bad for me or for yourself, but I AM saying this to let you know, you are not alone. There is always someone out there that will reach out a hand to you even when you feel your feet sinking in the sand.

I know how hard both anxiety and depression are to control. Even though I’m 25, I still have my moments where everything gets to me and I just don’t even want to get out of bed.

But, when I was 24, I made a leap of faith and asked to join a new scan group to help with cleaning. I was accepted and, after finding out how much I loved it, I created Exiled Rebels.

Somehow, I’m not even sure how, I gained so many volunteers who wanted to help me start out. First we were only five and then, now, a year later, we’ve become a massive thirty five with two separate sections of translators.

Each and everyone of the girls (and guys) within my group have taught me something. Even when we are running behind schedule, even when our real lives are so hectic we don’t even want to talk, there is something I tell all of them.

Don’t give up.

Giving up is an ending. It’s you admitting defeat, not to just what you’re working on, but you’re giving up on yourself. So please, and this comes from my heart, don’t give up. Start with baby steps to get whatever you may be working on started again.

I know it sounds lame, but each step forward is a step toward a goal. No matter what that goal may be, create one. Maybe have one for the first month of something really easy and increase it until you can get back up on your feet (figuratively and literally).

I see your (and everyone else’s) comments everywhere and I read each and every one of them.

Tumblr was closed down because it was bringing back my anxiety and depression. Now, our discord as well is being shut down for the same reason.

To my group, I am the backbone, the foundation, and if I crumbled, so would the entire group. I do not want that, so I am distancing myself from the negativity of those two worlds.

Thank you so much for the love and support, it has been noticed.

Don’t give up, keep fighting.

Love,
Addis

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HXD
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HXD

Just wanting to show support. I’m not good at words of encouragement, so here’s a virtual shoulder to lean on if you need to.
You’re pretty awesome for bringing together such a fun and friendly group.

Little Moon
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Little Moon

This may be not important, but i kinda owe you guys a lot. You see, LMW is the very first webnovel i read. Before that i don’t read any webnovels, i somehow underestimated webnovels a lot. I kinda regret it now tho hehe.. So after i read LMW i was hooked, i never knew that there was such a good story to read, so i started searching for more, and more, and more.. to the point that i was like a worshipper to webnovels. In my deepest darkest hour those novels were my only enjoyment, my sanctuary, my only escape.… Read more »

Gwarp
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gwarp

Thank you for sharing your personal story of life, Addis. I appreciate all of your excellent work with Exiled Rebels team. You guys bring joy and something to look forward to after a hectic day or week.
Keep up the wonderful work and please don’t forget to take a break once in awhile to take care of your awesome selves \^0^/

Eve373
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eve373

Thank you for that. Remember that it speaks a lot of your mental strength to have gone through everything you did and still be able to say that message. You guys are all much stronger than you think. We will always be here to support you!

Joyce L.
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Joyce L.

Aw Love, stay strong. Deff stay away from those trolls; they are heartless monsters. You’re an amazing person. You and your team have brought joy and ❤️ To various people all over the world with your work. You can’t stop the bigots or trolls but you can gain an endless supply of support and love from us. Keep your head up and live, the future is always full of random surprises. Focus on the love!

Always,
A fan , Joyce L.

Joyce L.
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Joyce L.

remember!!

Love is here
You are loved
You are beautiful
You are amazing
You deserve to be happy
You deserve to live
You deserve to experience the greatness life gives as any other.

We all deserve to live to our fulliest. No one has the right to take it away from you. So remember, you are loved-you are special-you are amazing and we all thank every moment you are alive. We also thank you for your work. You and your team have been here for years and I hope to continue seeing you guys here till I’m an old lady. Hahaha

Jaimie
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Jaimie

I have only two things to say: you’re my favorite scanlations group and the world is better because of you, atleast I know my world is.

Daelahrose
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Daelahrose

Thank you so much for sharing that, I can truly relate to some aspects of it. I’ve never been officially diagnosed with depression but I do have a serious ‘anxiety’ problem, I’ve always had it for as long as I can remember. I’ve always been an introverted person and find it extremely difficult to communicate with people, you can’t imagine the encouragement speech I give myself every single day to step outside of my home and deal with the everyday task of work/shopping etc… I always prioritise my ‘outside’ chores so that I can spend a lot more time indoors.… Read more »

Tuyet
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tuyet

Thank you very much for all ur work

Deena
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Deena

There are ups n down in lyfe and treatment dat we get from people around us dat really affects us .. 😰But out of our thoughts there are people who care about us soO guys Thankyou soO much u are all strong n u all deserve love …. Negativity comes along the way but give it a less thought. Guys like u make me happy n there’s a room 19 of my own n u guys are the reason that this room makes me happy love u all.. Hope u guys get lots of love n support n be there… Read more »

Trinitybloodlover
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trinitybloodlover

I am not good with words, but I am a hugger and kisser, So I can tell you
I would hug you and tell you, it will be ok, and if you have a bad day
I will support you and hug and sing little songs to you, I know it isn’t much
but you can count on me, and I believe hugs helps us both, and lets us know
we are not alone !!! hugggss

chii
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chii

Hey, I’m just a silent reader who often enjoys your scanlations. Congratulations for the one year anniversary!!!! I really admire u for overcome your anxiety, not a easy thing and even to admit it. Most of people think it’s just you that don’t want to “grow up” and be lazy. Never thought that mangas and anime would have helped people and me to find a way de-stress themselves. Again, happy anniversary and THANK YOU for your hard work.

Moonmermaid
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moonmermaid

Thank you for all your hard work everyone!! This site has opened my eyes to the work of BL novels and I’ll always be thankful for that 😉 Also, although I haven’t been here long, the updates here are always highlights of my day! :))) So again thanks for all the hard work put in and hope you all have a nice day on your anniversary!!!

AnimeChe2
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AnimeChe2

thank you for your good words and encouragements. all of us may have different experiences in life but one way or another we all faced difficulties and sometimes loneliness. saying thank you may not be enough considering all the efforts you put on your translations. for me reading is not just a hobby but its a way to to attain peace and calmness, therefore, thank you.

Aeli
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Aeli

I would like to voice a lot of support and thanks – for many things! <3 All the work you all do is very much appreciated! I admire you a lot for bravery and actually, actively doing something and not shrinking back in your own personal shell. Uh, I'm the best at the last part – I mean – sleeping in the shell.
May this Anniversary of yours be really happy. A lot of hugs, fluffy blankets and warm cacao (or tea, or coffee if you prefer) for all of you! : ))

Skye
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skye

Thank you so much for building this lovely community.

One may not be able to do much, but together, people can move mountains with the love and support of others. Let us be your pillars of support, whether it be openly or quietly.

I’m sure each one of us is grateful for the work you all provide, leaving us with a piece of happiness everyday.

May you all continue to find happiness with our love.

Curly1905
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Curly1905

Thank you very much, your scanlations reading them lowers my stress,tiredness and relaxes me at the end of the day so thank you again and happy anniversary🎉🎉

amaunett
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Thank you ☺️ for your hard work

Alixdez
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Alixdez

I’m not good with words but I wanna say thank you so much, I’m really proud of you and to be part of this. I hope that better thinks will come for all of you.
I love your work so much and I’ll support you so as you said don’t give up, we’re here <3

Ash
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Damn this made me tear up gosh i really needed this as much as you need appreciation

Mitsi
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Mitsi

Thank you so much for your hard work! Don’t let ungrateful people bring you down. You deserve way better. We all support you and we really appreciate your work. I know it’s not easy, but I hope you live your life to the fullest. You all are very talented and seem like great people. Again, thank you and happy anniversary!

Moyamoya
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Moyamoya

Thanks for the dedication *love*

Justbored
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I am so sorry for saying this, thinking like this but most of the time at least for me the novel is more important than the translator. Because i read it and connect with it. Yes you are the link to this connection but novel means more cause at the end translator is just a name at the end of the chapter. I don’t feel any emotional connection because i don’t know you. But i know things. I know you are an amazing human being that tries to get over really big issue in real life and just want to… Read more »

Farnaz
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Farnaz

Well, this was unexpected! I always imagine you guys cheerful and busy hehe… Now I admire you more addis, I always respected you for dealing with the troubles in those dramas, managing a big groupe and doing such a great job, but now knowing you actually went through alot, i feel more respect toward you (: The whole group is amazing! I thank everyone of you guys, it’s really admirable that you do the scanning, cleaning, translating, etc… Though you have the real life to deal with! The scanlation groups are a whole new world to me! And about yaoi… Read more »

Fluffy
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Fluffy

Oh damn, I didn’t know about the stuff that was going on tumblr and discord. I’m sorry that you and your team had to go through that. I really appreciate all the efforts put into the translation/scanlation.