Stop Thinking Chapter 23: Foam on the sea

Chapter 23: Foam on the sea

Translated by Addis of Exiled Rebels Scanlations

Editor: Karai

After a moment of uncomfortable silence, Gu Xiuhan slowly turned around.

The pupils of his eyes were dark and unrecognizable, and there was a trained composure in his tone when dealing with a sudden attack, “What did I think?”

He wanted to know what Ruan Yu had read, and when he could have read it. But these words sounded like sophistry and rhetorical questions to Ruan Yu’s ears. It was as if Gu Xiuhan would deny it if he could not give evidence.

“Do you want me to…” Ruan Yu opened his mouth, his throat was so tight that he could not squeeze out a sound, until his eyes were sore and hot, before he stuttered out a few hot words, “ankles rubbed red, but also, what else…. So tender, so fragrant.”

Gu Xiuhan was silent for a long time, sighing as softly as he asked, “Is there more.”

“Yes.” Like the bloated epidermis was cut a slit, the original unspoken content opened up like a brain spurt out, Ruan Yu voice muffled, betrayed, as if little fish baby was bullied after complaining to his brother’s indignant tone, “think of my beautiful, thought of several times… and also, also ‘blush’. And also, also ‘more beautiful when blushing’…”

After half a day of complaining, the one who bullied him was his brother.

As a result, the more you say, the more aggrieved you are, and the volume is gradually fading to almost inaudible.

“And fantasize that while I was asleep… Smell me.”

The words to the tip of the tongue, Ruan Yu glanced at Gu Xiuhan sunken forced over the pupils of the black eyes, stopped mouth, dare not say.

Gu Xiuhan actually called others a pervert before…

The light blue veins at the corners of the forehead were lightly floating and jumping, Gu Xiuhan raised his hand and rubbed it with his fingertips, first whispering, “Sorry, Ruan Ruan.”

He did think what he shouldn’t have thought.

And on the occasion of apologizing, you couldn’t use “but” and ” however” to justify yourself.

But Gu Xiuhan held back and kept holding back, and after a long time, a few words that seemed like sparks flew out of his teeth, “But I’m not a pervert.”

He usually indulged in a lot more than that, but he wouldn’t have let his imagination get this dense, and it was more or less influenced by Ruan Yu’s courtship pheromones.

The result is…

Ruan Yu had never heard Gu Xiuhan speak to him in such a gritty tone, and moved his buttocks inside the sofa in panic, his eyes drifting about and refusing to look at the other, half-heartedly and half-hardly demanding, “I’m the one who should be angry, you can’t be angrier than me.”

“Okay.” Gu Xiuhan’s throat sank as he noticed Ruan Yu’s micro-movement to avoid moving away, and subconsciously took a step forward, his upright and sharply built body blocking the light from the overhead lights, caging Ruan Yu into the shadows.

He wanted to talk to Ruan Yu clearly.

Mermaid’s mental energy would increase with age, the current situation occurring was inevitable, and Gu Xiuhan thought about how to explain it in a way that Ruan Yu could understand –

I just secretly like you.

Humans aren’t like mermaids with pure and transparent minds, and many humans have assumptions about the object of their affection, not that he’s an extraordinarily nasty person.

He never thought about others, before his feelings for Ruan Yu turned sour that he does not even have the need to solve alone, and the so-called perverts were not like that.

…

However, the most important thing is that the person who has to say too much, but there was a barrier to expression, the part of expressing feelings was particularly difficult, so the words were choked in the throat, leaving only a handsome and stoic face, fixed towards Ruan Yu.

The feeling of oppression, which was as heavy as iron, instantly reminded Ruan Yu of the Gu Xiuhan in his fantasy image, who ignored his struggle and held him forcefully, mad at him, and was a different person from his usual self.

“Why are you so close…” Ruan Yu suddenly opened his eyes round, like a frightened kitten who was afraid of being grabbed and sucked by a human’s face, and muttered to escape. But Gu Xiuhan was in the way, so he had to lift his feet and twist to the side, intending to arch over the arm of the sofa to the floor.

Ruan Yu’s feet were raised halfway, and his slippers were lifted onto Gu Xiuhan’s legs, and he was about to duck, when a pair of tiny ankle bones were cupped by a large, hot hand and pressed down firmly like a doll.

Gu Xiuhan kneeled on one knee, using both arms to hold the armrests on both sides of the sofa to block Ruan Yu’s retreat, thin lips pursed. He wanted to lighten his voice, first coax the tense little mermaid scared by his face, and then slowly explained one word at a time.

But the lightning bolt, all that flashed through the mind were memories of Ruan Yu’s sticky and pestering past.

When he was sixteen or seventeen years old, he was still pampered and wanted to sleep with Gu Xiuhan…

The clothes that were tailored for him refused to be worn after a few tries, but he was happy to wander around in Gu Xiuhan’s clothes when he was on the shore…

The clinging problem couldn’t be wrenched, even when they were in the same room, he couldn’t help but sneak the small blanket and humidifier to Gu Xiuhan’s side for a little while, like an addiction, he couldn’t stand not being close to his brother…

The damp little tail would wrap itself around Gu Xiuhan’s legs when it had the chance, rubbing Gu Xiuhan’s military boots with its dense and smooth silver scales, in lieu of the intimate act of the mermaid tribe rubbing each other’s tails…

When doing these things Ruan Yu’s round eyes were always comfortable and slightly curved, in contrast to the avoidance of the eyes.

An unwarranted sulk surged in his chest, mermaid sweet courtship pheromones lingered at the end of his nose, Gu Xiuhan frowned as if in pain, the restrained impulse broke through the ignition point, burning his voice hoarse, but still tried his best to coax, “… Don’t be afraid, Ruan Ruan.”

The simultaneous sound of the heart is…

[Want to run away.]

The tone of voice was inexplicably horrifying, as if there was a fire under pressure.

Ruan Yu had become so weak that his body was almost embedded in the back of the sofa, and he tried to push Gu Xiuhan’s hard as steel arm at his side, but to no avail, he mumbled and dared not say the whole sentence, “Just, just…”

Just want to run, but can not.

“Who…”

Who told you to be so scary?

Gu Xiuhan was quiet for a moment, his eyes inadvertently swept over Ruan Yu’s thin arms and legs hidden under loose pajamas, and his tone returned to his usual cold and serious, “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have thought about that.”

The apology was sincere. But the long-suppressed mind was like some kind of rebellious tendency.

[The bones are too small.]

[It can be snapped with one hand.]

With…

A pair of wrists were pinched up and firmly snapped into the palm, wrist bones were strangled with finger marks, pinkish-white skin against a silver-gray mechanical right hand… The confining conjecture.

He was obviously stung by Ruan Yu’s dodge a few moments ago, inspiring a subconscious control of the valley owed, wanting to firmly clutch this slippery little fish.

“?”

Ruan Yu’s eyes grew even rounder and his eyelashes fluttered.

Four eyes met.

Gu Xiuhan instantly understood, the eyebrows twitched, even the back of the hand veins followed, “… Read it again?”

Ruan Yu nodded and froze, “You’re trying to forcefully hold me back and won’t let me go.”

“…” Gu Xiuhan was strangely silent for a moment, and instead of a trace of shame appearing on his face, he bluntly admitted, “I want to.”

Then, he slowly withdrew his hand on the sofa like a self-wrestle, and returned the space that was forbidden by his arms to Ruan Yu, his eyes unconsciously roaming under Ruan Yu’s nose, as if hesitating for something, and said slowly, “But I won’t.”

“I just can’t control my mind,” Gu Xiuhan said with a single voice, as if he was reading an official document, “because I have feelings for you that go beyond the realm of brotherhood.”

Gu Xiuhan had always been calm and self-possessed, stereotypically ascetic, like an emotionless machine at work, and only slightly relaxed in front of his family and Ruan Yu.

To Ruan Yu, he was always a reliable and mature older brother, who was very measured and always able to create the most comfortable way for Ruan Yu to get along with him, while satisfying his every small wish.

But now, in the blind spot of Ruan Yu’s sight, Gu Xiuhan seemed to be a different person, his aggressive eyes with madness and long-standing delusions, like a tight net, wrapping Ruan Yu in it.

Ruan Yu was unaware of this, he was shocked by the heavy bomb Gu Xiuhan threw out, his ears still echoing with Gu Xiuhan’s unspoken confessions.

Those heart sounds, in the mind boiling back to the sky.

[I like you, baby.]

There was nothing more to worry about.

The fondness that had been poured out in the depths of the heart countless times, I didn’t know when it started, but it would never stop.

[So I won’t hurt you no matter what.]

[Thinking and doing are not the same, I will restrain myself.]

[So, Ruan Ruan…]

[Could you… not be afraid of me]

The soft, harmless voice of his heart fell like broken snow.

Ruan Yu stared at Gu Xiuhan hand and foot, his eyes full of confusion.

The cheeks somehow re-burned, diffused pink and red, a brilliant piece, even the fish in question did not find himself.

Gu Xiuhan looked at him, compassionate and pained.

If he had known that Ruan Yu’s mind-reading skills had progressed so quickly after the split, he should have been more cautious and restrained in any case.

At least… It can’t be exposed so suddenly.

Gu Xiuhan’s contrast was too big, Ruan Yu was muddle-headed, could not understand, his round eyes glared at Gu Xiuhan.

It’s all Gu Xiuhan’s fault.

How could someone be stuffed with strange and nasty thoughts and have a stiff explanation on his lips, while mumbling such gentle words in his heart…

The tone of his voice was so careful.

It’s like holding a handful of sea foam that was about to dissipate, lest the exhaled air blow them apart.

He was not sure whether he should be angry or not.

Maybe only Gu Xiuhan would be like this.

After being treated by Ruan Yu for so many years, Gu Xiuhan was basically normal, but still had some difficulty in expressing his emotions, the most passionate and delicate part of his emotions were all pent up in his heart.

“I’m sorry if my feelings for you make you feel uncomfortable,” Gu Xiuhan’s eyes narrowed and his thin lips opened and closed mechanically, “I’m sorry.”

“I’m not uncomfortable…” Ruan Yu caught the point and retorted first.

It seems too heavy to say the degree of discomfort.

If it was someone else, like Qin Yue thinking nonsense previously in front of him, Ruan Yu would feel as uncomfortable as a bunch of ants crawling on his body. That was what was called discomfort.

Gu Xiuhan thinking about that, and others thinking about that was not the same.

Ruan Yu was mainly shocked and shy after he poked at the incident.

After all, mermaids do not fill their heads with waste, and the human thought mermaids were too thick and too intense.

There were some other things that Ruan Yu couldn’t understand for a while, and the key reason for his annoyance was very complex and subtle in detail.

So he seriously pondered, and even his face followed a moment of strain, before he finally ran his thoughts clear.

“You think wrong, I’m not angry that you like me…”

Ruan Yu’s voice was soft when he spoke again, with a lot of disbelief and aggravation.

It really wasn’t that I was angry at being liked.

“What really makes me angry is that it’s not a bad thing that you like me, so why do you keep it inside and not tell me, and not try to court me? All you know is to deliberately shoo me away, alienate me, put a stinky face on me, and then secretly fantasize about things that scare me…”

“If you like me, why do you treat me so badly?”

 

 

 

 

 

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