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Chapter 103: Hatred (Part Six)

Sect Leader Jiang’s words were eternally tainted with mockery. But this time, whom he mocked was no one but himself.

Suddenly, he said, “I’m sorry.”

Wei WuXian hesitated, “… You don’t need to say sorry.”

At this point, it was impossible to figure out who should apologize to whom.

Wei WuXian continued, “Take it as my repayment to the Jiang Sect.”

Jiang Cheng looked up. He looked at him with teary, bloodshot eyes, voice hoarse, “… Repayment to my father, my mother, my sister?”

Wei WuXian pressed his temples, “Forget it. It’s all in the past now. Let’s not mention it again.”

It wasn’t something he liked to reminisce about. He didn’t want to be reminded again and again of what it felt like when his core was cut out or what price he had to pay. If this were exposed in the past, he’d most likely laugh and comfort Jiang Cheng, ‘It’s not that big of a deal anyways. Look at me all these years. Without the core, I still managed to come through, didn’t I? Beating everyone I wanted to beat, killing everyone I wanted to kill.’ But now, he indeed didn’t have the strength left to put up such a confident, nonchalant pretense.

From the bottom of his heart, he knew he wasn’t so indifferent about it after all.

Was it really that easy to move on from such a thing?

Of course not.

In truth, when Wei WuXian was seventeen or eighteen, his pride wasn’t much lower than Jiang Cheng’s. He once had strong spiritual powers, more talented than others. No matter how much he fooled around, staying up all night pulling pranks on others, he was still far ahead of his classmates who worked so hard.

But every time he tossed and turned as he lay awake at night, knowing he’d never reach the stars using proper means, knowing he’d never wield his sword with the excellence that was supposed to bring astonishment to so many eyes, he wondered if Jiang FengMiang hadn’t take him back to Lotus Pier, perhaps he wouldn’t cross paths with cultivation his whole life. Then he would have never known that such a magnificent path existed in this world. He’d only be a head beggar who roamed the streets, fleeing at first sight of a dog, or maybe looking after cows and stealing other people’s crops in the countryside, playing his flute to pass his time. He wouldn’t have known to cultivate, and he definitely wouldn’t have had the chance to form a core. With such thoughts, he’d felt much better.

Take it as repayment, or take it as redemption. Take it as he’d never received the golden core to begin with.

After explaining things to himself like this again and again, it was as though he was truly as confident and as nonchalant as he made it seem like on the surface, and along the way he could even praise himself for such a state of mind, whether he was lying or not.

But that was in his past life.

Wei WuXian, “Uh, I think it’s best if you… also stop keeping it on your mind. I know you’ll definitely always keep it on your mind, but, how should I say it…” He clenched Lan WangJi’s hand, saying to Jiang Cheng, “Right now, I do really think… it’s all in the past. It’s been too long. There’s no need to struggle with it any longer.”

Jiang Cheng wiped his face roughly, drying his tears. He took in a deep breath and closed his eyes.

At this point, still enveloped in Lan XiChen’s robe, Nie HuaiSang gradually woke up. Moaning lightly, he managed to crawl up, still bleary-eyed, “Where am I?”

Yet, the instant he got up, he saw Wei WuXian and Lan WangJi sitting together so tightly on the same sitting mat. The YiLing Patriarch was basically sitting on HanGuang-Jun’s lap. He immediately let out a wail, as if he was about to faint again. At the same time, a series of strange sounds came from behind the Guanyin Temple, as though something was being spurt out. A moment later, the cultivators who’d been digging began to wail too.

The expressions of everyone in the temple changed. Immediately, a somewhat pungent odor drifted outside. As Lan XiChen covered his face with his sleeves, some worry could be seen in his eyes. Soon, two figures staggered outside.

Su She was holding Jin GuangYao up. The two looked pale, while the wails from behind the palace continued. Su She, “Sect Leader, how do you feel?!”

Cold sweat seeped from Jin GuangYao’s forehead, “Fine. Thank you for back then.”

His left hand dangled, unable to be lifted. His entire arm trembled, as though he was suffering extreme pain. With his right hand he took a bottle of pills from his lapels. He wanted to open it, but it was difficult with just one hand. Seeing this, Su She immediately took over the bottle and tipped a pill into his palm. Jin GuangYao lowered his head, gulping it down with a frown. His brows relaxed immediately.

Lan XiChen hesitated for a moment before asking, “What happened?”

Jin GuangYao paused in surprise. Blood finally seemed to have rose to his cheeks as he managed a smile, “An accident.”

He took out some medicinal powder and sprinkled it over his hand. An area of red had appeared from the back of his left hand to his wrist. With observation, it could be seen that the skin seemed like cooked meat. The skin was completely ruined. Jin GuangYao tore off a part of his white sleeves, his fingers trembling slightly, “MinShan, wrap it tight around my wrist.”

Su She, “It’s poisonous?”

Jin GuangYao, “The poison is still flowing upwards. It’s not a big deal. The poison can be ejected with some rest.”

Right after Su She treated his wound, Jin GuangYao wanted to return behind the palace to inspect. Su She hurried, “Sect Leader, let me go!”

The pungent smell dissipated gradually. Wei WuXian and Lan WangJi got up as well. A tall mountain of dirt could be seen beside a deep ditch. Quite a delicate coffin lay at one side, atop it a pitch-black box. Both of the two had been opened already, and thin, white smoke continued to rise from within. The odor came from the white smoke, which meant it must be some sort of fatal poison. Corpses that belonged to the cultivators who’d been digging so earnestly lay scattered all around the coffin. Right now, they had been burned alive. Even their uniforms and robes and had been corroded to black fragments. It was obvious just how poisonous the white smoke was.

Leading the way, he used his sword energy to repel the remaining smoke. The tip of his blade flicked across the black box. The iron chest fell to the ground. It was empty.

Jin GuangYao finally couldn’t hold himself back any longer. He stumbled towards the edge of the coffin. The blood that had returned to his face immediately faded again. It could be seen just by his expression that the coffin was empty as well.

Lan XiChen approached. After he saw the horror that had become of the palace, he was shocked, “What in the world did you bury here? How could this be??”

Nie HuaiSang only had a glance before he collapsed to the ground, retching. Jin GuangYao’s lips trembled. He couldn’t say anything. A streak of lightning exploded, reflecting against the pale white of his face. His expression was terrifying indeed, sending chills down Nie HuaiSang’s spine. He didn’t even dare vomit too loudly, covering his mouth behind Lan XiChen’s back, shivering whether out of fear or the cold. Lan XiChen turned around and said a few words of comfort to him, while Jin GuangYao didn’t even have the strength to upkeep his kind, gentle front.

Wei WuXian, “ZeWu-Jun, now you’re doing wrong to Sect Leader Jin here. He wasn’t the one who buried the things here at all. Even if he buried something in the beginning, it should be long since someone switched them with something else.”

Su She pointed at him with his sword, his voice cold, “Wei WuXian! Is this a trick of yours?!”

Wei WuXian, “I’m not trying to brag, but if I were the one who pulled a trick on you, an arm might not be all that’s wounded on your sect leader. Sect Leader Jin, do you still remember the letter Qin Su brought you, back on Koi Tower?”

Jin GuangYao’s eyes slowly moved towards him.

Wei WuXian, “The one who told Qin Su the good things you did was Madam Qin’s previous maid, BiCao. But when BiCao suddenly decided to expose everything, did you really believe nobody was pushing things forward from behind? And Maiden SiSi, the one you locked up. Who saved her? Who was the one that told her to go to the YunmengJiang Sect with BiCao and expose your secrets in front of everyone? If they could find out every single one of those hidden secrets of yours, Sect Leader Jin, what’s so hard about coming here beforehand and switching what you wanted to dig up with poisonous smoke to give you when you came?”

Suddenly, a monk spoke, “Sect Leader, there are signs of displacement in the dirt here. Somebody’s dug in from the other side before!”

As expected, someone was here first. Jin GuangYao turned around, slamming his fist on the empty coffin. Nobody could see his expression, but all could see his trembling shoulders.

Wei WuXian grinned, “Sect Leader Jin, have you ever thought that perhaps tonight you’re a mantis, yet there’s an oriole* behind you? The one who’s been watching you might be hiding in the dark this exact moment, observing your every move. No, maybe, it’s not a person…”

TN: The full saying is “the mantis stalks the cicada, unaware of the oriole behind”.

The storm muffled the thunder. As he heard the words ‘not a person’, for a split second, something that could be described as fear flashed across Jin GuangYao’s face.

Su She sneered, “Wei WuXian, stop with the empty intimidation…”

Jin GuangYao raised his right hand to stop him. The fear on his face went as soon as it came. All of his emotions were quickly under control. He spoke, “Don’t waste your energy on arguing. Treat the injury on your body. After I remove the poison, gather the rest of the people at once and prepare to depart.”

Su She, “Sect Leader, what about the thing that’s been dug out?”

Jin GuangYao’s lips were a bit pale, “If it’s been dug out already, it’s definitely be impossible to take back. We shouldn’t stay here for long.”

Su She, “Yes!”

Back when Su She fought with Fairy, he’d been wounded in many places by its claws. His clothes were ripped both at his arms and his chest, and at his chest especially, the wounds dug deep into his flesh. Blood seeped through the white robes. If the wounds weren’t treated properly, he might not be able to face whatever emergency situations that happened, as time went on. Jin GuangYao took out a pouch of medicine from his lapels and passed it to him. 

Su She received it with both hands, “Yes.” 

Indeed, he stopped talking to Wei WuXian as he turned around and took off his clothes to treat his wounds. Jin GuangYao still couldn’t move the hand burned by the poisonous smoke. He could only sit on the ground and concentrate on expelling the poison. The remaining cultivators held their swords as they walked back and forth inside Guanyin Temple, keeping guard. As he saw these glaring blades, Nie HuaiSang’s eyes went straight ahead. He had no guards beside him, so he didn’t even dare let out a loud breath. Shrunken against the corner behind Lan XiChen, he let out quite a few sneezes.

Wei WuXian thought, To other people, Su She’s quite sarcastic, and to Lan Zhan, he’s even more resentful. But he’s sure quite respectful towards Jin GuangYao.

As he thought this, he couldn’t help glancing at Lan WangJi, just in time to see a streak of ice flash before his eyes.

Voice cold, Lan WangJi spoke to Su She, “Turn around.”

Su She was looking down, applying medicine to the scratch marks at his chest, facing them sideways. As he heard Lan WangJi’s almost inviolable command, he involuntarily turned around. As he turned around, both Jiang Cheng and Jin Ling widened their eyes. The grin on Wei WuXian’s face disappeared as well.

He almost couldn’t believe it, “… It’s you!”

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  1. I actually said “shxx!” right after I finish this chapter. What a cliffhanger! Arghhh!
    To hear Jiang Cheng mock himself and say sorry to Wei Ying is painfull. He is a man who take himself highly, so proud of himself. Just how much he’s been hurt by Wei Ying broke his promise, his sacrifice, by being kept in the dark. I do understand why Wei Ying didn’t tell him, but I really feel sorry for Jiang Cheng. “I’m sorry” is the best way for him to express how he feel to Wei Ying. It’s all done.

  2. ho dammnnn… hahahahaahahahaha….
    i wonder who is that “you”?? X’D

    THANKS FOR THE UPDATE!!!! Please take care of yourself.. Stay healthy always.. and thank you for the hard work that you have done ERS! and and K-san as well.. take your time with the translations..

  3. I suddenly thought that I dont like WWX at all. Why did after I read this chapter, I feel like WWX is kinda a jerk. I want to punch him on the face. Just because he transfered his jindan to Jiang Cheng, did he really think that it was enough for compentation? No, I guess. He was to haughty and acted like an almighty hero all around in the past. He maybe thought that the world is unfair to him. But it was not! Actually, there are million of people in the world, he shouldnt act as if he was the sole main character… and people ought to please him all year round. He made mistakes, intentionally or not. Causing Jiang Cheng and Jin Ling an orphan… If transferred his Jindan could fix everything and brought back the dead, then maybe it would be enough. Too bad it wasnt.

    1. “…he shouldnt act as if he was the sole main character… and people ought to please him all year round”

      If that were true,

      1. He wouldn’t have put up with a stubborn, finicky donkey.
      2. He wouldn’t bothered trying to appease JC’s fragile ego by making that “subordinate” promise.
      3. Madam Yu wouldn’t have left JC’s well-being and life in his hands.
      4. He wouldn’t even consider paying any restitution, let alone giving up what allowed him to be “to haughty and acted like an almighty hero all around”.
      5. He wouldn’t have left the comfort and leisure of Jiang sect to subsist on Burial Mound for a group powerless, homeless enemy of the cultivation world.

      If that were true,
      1. He would have thrown some epic temper tantrums.
      2. Even if somehow the concept of restitution did occur to him and he did transfer his golden core to JC, he would let JC know about it immediately, and not ever let him live this down.
      3. And he thought life was unfair to him. He would at least try to lord over both LWJ and JinZiXuan as their lifesaver, because “your lifesaver is your born-again parents” and “your lifesaver owns your life”. “Woe is me! It’s so unfair for people to blame me for Jiang sect’s destruction. But it’s done. I might as well get something out of it.” Additional benefit, as their lifesaver, he should feel comfortable taking their lives whenever he pleased.
      4. As YiLing Patriarch, he would have his fierce corpses go around exterminating dogs.

      If that were true, he wouldn’t have voluntarily gone to QiShan Wen Sect’s “reeducation” camp in the first place. Clearly, they wouldn’t do anything to please him the least bit. Why be an idiot?

      By the way, WWX is the lead main character and protagonist of the novel. So yes, events do revolve around him. And this is not a Marty/Jack Sue story.

      Lastly, seems unlikely such warped view of a character would “suddenly” happen to someone who truly liked WWX prior to this (late) point in the novel.

    2. @Catherina, And can I say that your comment here about WWX makes me want to punch you too?! You really are irrational and lack a heart to not understand the sacrifice that Wei Ying did for him. Blinded by your love for JC, this is really something…Wei Ying didn’t intend to tell JC about the GC transfer is because he didn’t want him to feel indebted to him, it was out of good intentions because he cares for JC!!! And you still think that those deaths hurts him any less?! Honestly?! Have you been reading this story properly?! Or are you another Madam Yu who just faults all misfortune that happens on WWX as the problem too?!

    3. @Catherina Jane… honestly comment like yours really makes me wonder are you so blinded by your hate and you being a JC Stan, and it’s really make it hard for me to even see JC in a positive light… So all you see was JC suffering?! Mind you that it isn’t just JC who have suffered but Wei Ying did too! Even more so than you could even imagine! And is it so hard to tell how much he’s suffered?! We are reading this from his pov after all! JC was lucky that he didn’t live with that guilt that Wei Ying gave up his life cultivation for him! He didn’t told him because he didn’t want JC to feel indebted to him, because he knows him too well! The death that happened to Lotus Pier and his sister and brother in law was NOT Wei Ying’s fault since he couldn’t control what happened!!! It really baffles me how fans can still blame Wei Ying for the destruction to Lotus pier when we understand there’s nothing wrong with Wei Ying wanting to help an innocent! Someone had to do it! If you’re going to blame someone, then blame Wen Chao and those Wen Dogs that is behind this! You also read the story too, have you not?! So why is it so hard to understand!

      All I’m seeing here is people is feeling sorry sorry for Jiang Cheng, that’s fine!! But did you know what means to Wei Ying when he gave up that path (GC) for JC?! You can technically say that is HIS LIFE because he cannot form another one in ones life time after his GC is gone! It’s like WN said, if there’s another choice he wouldn’t have walked the demonic path! So how can people still say they want to punch Wei Ying for the pain that he caused JC is beyond me! You people (those who thinks it’s Wei Ying fault and talk shit about him) all only cared about JC… But did you know that JC also have hurted Wei Ying too when he decided to break ties with him instead of standing by his side ?? Really depending on which Stan you’re on they both have hurted so much, but to me Wei Ying have hurted more… He died a painful death, this wouldn’t have happened if JC stand by his side like a family to support him, and he can no longer walk that proper path because of the sacrifices he gave to JC… Honestly what more does fan wants?! It’s like Wei Ying said…Those deaths, he will always remember them and will always feel guilty about it so this hurts him too!

    4. @Catharina Jane Stephanie Wustardjo, do you not understand what Wei Ying have sacrificed for Jiang Cheng to still want to punch him? Your comment really annoys me because you’re belittling the sacrifices Wei Ying made for Jiang Cheng… When Wei Ying decides to transfer his GC to Jiang Cheng, so that Jiang Cheng can continue living, this is NOT a small feat…. We know in the MDZS world, one can only form a GC ONCE in their life time… Wei Ying practically gave up his bright path and because of this, you can say that Jiang Cheng is the reason he walked this demonic path which ended up him dying a VERY PAINFUL DEATH! Him carrying the guilt for the death of Yanli and Zixuan… This is TRAGIC! And this is NOT Wei Ying’s fault because he didn’t have control of any of this on his end….. BUT he will always carry this guilt with him!! What more do you want Wei Ying to do?! Do you really have such little understanding to the extent that Wei Ying sacrificed for Jiang Cheng? People always say Jiang Cheng suffered because of Wei Ying, really?! But when you look at it, Wei Ying also suffered because of Jiang Cheng… So it’s really both ways… but in the end, they both have suffered, however, when you look at things, Wei Ying suffered this in a LONG run because of the sacrifices he give up…So…. Can people stop irrationalizing things and blaming everything on Wei Ying for JC suffering? The destruction to Lotus pier is NOT Wei Ying’s fault. It’s Wen Chao! If you want to blame someone, then blame Wen Chao! NOT Wei Ying!

    5. Many person both like wwx and jc.I thought like wwx wasn’t a fault..and JC as well
      In actually i feel also not good at wwx’s response to jc from their dialogue,but i think it’s ok and could be understandable,wwx just want himself to look relax when he talk about his past coz he almost lost everything in his first life.it’s so painful to recall.

  4. Wei Ying’s thought’s in this chapter really saddens me, I really feel for him… And if people still doesn’t understand just how much he sacrificed for Jiang Cheng, then you really lack a heart T.T

  5. “It’s you..”
    Who? Who is that? Oh gosh.
    Can’t help but think who might be possible to do that.
    The beginning of this ch is really sad. Suddenly recall the scene before the wen throw him in the burial mound.
    Anyway. Pls don’t give us that cliffhanger…

  6. “It’s you!” my suspicious is that he is the one who stared the first grave lie about WW. In that time he was so happy about jiling birth

    THANK YOU !

  7. Is Su She the one who casted that curse with the holes? Perhaps it rebounded back to him for some reason? I personally thought it was JGY all this time.

    I have started to feel more sympathetic towards JC. WWX was very much the scapegoat for even the things he had no hand in or were beyond his control and JC was ungrafteful and bitter when he shouldn’t be.

    However, JC was instantly considered the next leader as a child, if only because his sister didn’t have potential. That was and is all he could become. He had to live with strict parents who didn’t love each other. Then came WWX, who was free of all of that, yet in his eyes was more promising and talented. And then he lost his entire family, his home and sect and had to rebuild it all alone. He probably felt betrayed and abandoned by everyone and likely felt enormous pressure.

    I think I mostly blame it on his parents. They knew how high-strung, insecure and competitive he could be and that the only path given to his was become a sect leader. Yet they did not guide him well enough to make him feel accepted and make sure that he understands it is more important to be at peace with yourself. That even if he is not the best cultivator ever, that he can still be good on his own terms.

  8. Great chapter! And ALSO! Thank you for noticing the song “Big Fish”! I really love the vocal version by Zhou Shen. The lyric of the song is really matched the overall situation in this chapter. How Wei Wuxian is afraid of Jiang Cheng staying in touch with him, but also sad because their brotherhood is kinda ended….

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