Chapter 96: Longing (Part Seven)
He finally realized. All those promises of ‘I’ll only ask him a few questions; I won’t do anything else’ he made to himself before he made Lan WangJi drink were only self-deception.
That the most disciplined person would throw tantrums, hit people, mess about after he was drunk, meant that Lan WangJi’s drunken actions weren’t self-controlled. And, even though Wei WuXian knew this, he still took advantage of the easy manipulation, purposely provoking him and leading him to do what he wanted.
No matter how ascetic he was, Lan WangJi was an ordinary man, after all. Having been teased so rudely by him, how could he have kept his calm? Just the day before, Lan WangJi was humiliated by Jiang Cheng with such a matter, and right now he was still worried about his brother, yet Wei WuXian had to mess things up like this…
Lan WangJi didn’t say anything else after the ‘mn’, but Wei WuXian had already thought of a bunch of things on his own.
In the two lives he lived, he’d never learned how to write the word ‘shame’, but right now, he understood more than anyone. His lips were still stinging and swollen, while the stickiness at his abdomen and between his legs embarrassed him even more. He could slam his head against the wall right now.
This situation clearly verified the worst possibility. Lan WangJi was indeed very nice towards him, but… it probably wasn’t the kind of nice he hoped for.
Not wanting to make Lan WangJi feel awkward, Wei WuXian scrambled to put on his outer clothes and pants. As he dressed, he slapped one side of his forehead, speaking in a tone not much different from his usual one, “You’re awake. Well, I’m pretty much awake too.”
Lan WangJi turned around and looked at him. Wei WuXian didn’t dare take a guess at the emotions that were inside of his eyes. Arms trembling slightly, he grabbed his clothes and hurried to put them over his head. He watched as Lan WangJi reached out towards him, after a moment of silence, as though wanting to help him wipe away the fluid on his body.
Wei WuXian blurted, “No thanks!!!”
Lan WangJi’s hand paused in mid-air before being retracted.
Wei WuXian let out a sigh of relief, murmuring, “You don’t have to. I’ll do it on my own. You don’t have to touch me.”
Someone like Lan WangJi would likely feel that he ruined the other’s appearance after he did it with them. Wei WuXian definitely didn’t have the face to let Lan WangJi clean him. He fumbled for a piece of undergarment, wiped himself with it, and tossed it away, “Um, Lan Zhan, both of us probably drank too much tonight. My apologies.”
Lan WangJi didn’t say anything.
Wei WuXian only put on one boot before continuing, “But you don’t have to feel too apologetic either. Uh, it’s normal for men to be like this sometimes. Please…don’t take it too seriously.”
Lan WangJi looked at him quietly, “Normal?”
His voice sounded more than calm.
Wei WuXian didn’t dare respond. Lan WangJi asked again, “Do not take it too seriously?”
Originally, Wei WuXian thought that compared to having his feelings be found out and them become so awkward they couldn’t even be friends, he’d much rather have Lan WangJi feel that he was a cheap, flippant person instead. But right now, he began to regret saying those idiotic things without thinking about them first. He whispered, “… I’m sorry.”
Lan WangJi suddenly stood up. Wei WuXian began to panic. At this point, the owner of the inn suddenly ran upstairs, knocking on the room door, “Young Masters, Young Masters! Are you in bed?”
Lan WangJi averted his gaze. Wei WuXian hurried to put on his other boot, “No! I mean, yes, yes we are. Hold on, I’ll get up after I put on some clothes.”
Only after Wei WuXian dressed himself did Lan WangJi walk over and open the door. Wei WuXian, “What’s wrong?”
Standing in the hallway, the owner smiled apologetically, “I’m really sorry to disturb your sleep so late at night. Please don’t mind. But I have no choice, either. The guest sleeping below you said that water dripped into their room. I thought it might be from your room, so I came to check…” She looked inside the room and was immediately shocked, “W-W-W-What happened here?!”
Wei WuXian touched his chin, “I’m the one who should be sorry. My apologies, Ma’am. I drank too much tonight and wanted to take a bath. Things were going great so I slapped the tub a few times, and then it broke. I’m really sorry; I’ll pay for it.” Right after he said it, he remembered that he couldn’t possibly pay. On their trip, Lan WangJi was the one responsible all of their expenses. In the end, Lan WangJi was still the one who’d pay for all this.
Although the owner kept on saying ‘it’s fine’ and ‘don’t worry’, her face was extremely distressed. She walked inside, “Just how did the water leak down… There isn’t even a place to put my feet in this room…” She bent down, picked up a few sitting mats, and exclaimed again, “Why is there a hole here?!”
It was the one that Lan WangJi made using Bichen. Wei WuXian combed his hand through his somewhat messy hair. He could only repeat his apologies, “Yeah, that’s my fault as well. I played around with my sword, and…”
Before he could even finish, Lan WangJi had already picked up the money pouch on the ground and placed a piece of silver on the table. The owner’s expression softened quite a lot, but she still had to say a few words, hand at her chest, “Young Master, no offense, but how could you throw around something as dangerous as a sword? It’s not that big of a deal if you poke a hole through the mat and the floor, but what if you hurt someone?”
Wei WuXian, “Yes, yes. You’re right, Ma’am.”
The owner took the money, “Then this’ll be it for now. It’s so late already too. You can rest first. I’ll switch you two to a new room and deal with this one tomorrow morning.”
Wei WuXian, “Yes, please, thank you… Wait! Then, could we have two rooms please?”
The owner mused, “Why two rooms?”
Wei WuXian didn’t dare look at Lan WangJi. He lowered his voice, “… I go berserk whenever I drink. You saw, didn’t you? I throw things around and play with my sword. Wouldn’t want to hurt anyone, either.”
The owner, “Indeed!”
After she answered, she indeed switched them to two rooms before she walked downstairs, holding the hem of her dress. Wei WuXian expressed his gratitude and opened the door to his room. Turning around, he saw Lan WangJi standing in the hallway, holding Bichen in one hand and fiddling with his forehead ribbon in the other. He looked down and said nothing.
Wei WuXian wanted to hide inside his room as soon as possible, but after he looked, he couldn’t walk another step. With much thought, he finally spoke, careful yet sincere, “Lan Zhan, about tonight, I’m sorry.”
With a while of silence, Lan WangJi breathed, “You do not have to say this to me.”
After he put on his forehead ribbon properly, he became the disciplined HanGuang-Jun once more. He nodded, “Rest well. We will talk about the Guanyin Temple and going to Lanling tomorrow.”
With this, Wei WuXian felt a bit better. At least they had something to talk about tomorrow. He grinned, “Yeah, you too. Rest well. Let’s talk about it tomorrow.”

Im just gonna sit here for about 4 hours before i even read this chapter
I had to sit down for about 4 hours after reading this chapter
its been a solid month before i could bring myself back to continue even tho i said 4 hours-
WWX please erase the “Thank you’s” from your vocabulary. You are about to kil LZ from a heart attack. TY.
LZ please be so kind to stop being a bipolar drama Queen.. You are confusing not only WWX but also the rest of us. TY.
He’s only making sure everything is fair. He’s so confused with himself already so anyone else has to be confused as well of course
Bipolar drama queen😂
whyyyy whyyyy just why did things have to go this wayy T_____T oh my heart. how dare you break it!
heart been broke so many times.
I~ don’t know what to believe~
MAMA SAYS IT’S MY FAULT😭😩
IT’S MY FAULT I WEAR MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE
THINK ITS BEST I PUT MY HEART ON ICE HEART ON ICE
🤕
This is me after reading this chapter.
I don’t know if I’m gonna feel sad or angry on this chapter!!! ik it’s hard for Wei Ying to admit his feelings bc he’s afraid of the negative consequences between their friendship. Though, he should also consider Lan Zhan’s feelings and confusions as well.
If I’m being concerned, if Wei Ying make it feel to Lan Zhan that something they did wasn’t special to him, I’m afraid that WangJi, already hurting, might not confessed his feelings thinking that Wei Ying won’t take it seriously. He even make it seem like he already did it with others before. *head shaking-wrong move* it’s my first time reading the novel version so my mind is running around with too many good and bad scenarios. 💔🥺😦😰😢😭
😭😭😭 you spoke What was on my mind THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING
it’s Also my first time reading the novel version after finishing the manhua, donghua and drama
wwx was in the middle of confessing when lz woke up and pushed him away of course he’d feel like it was all in his mind and lz was grossed, how is wwx supposed to know if the man never even speaks *sigh*
LWJ was awake since the bath, when he turned around and warn to not touch him. Coz he knew he wldn’t b able to control himself otherwise… Yet WWX teased him some more… thus the ensuing passion, obviously shared by both. Yet again WWX doesn’t understand, is still unable to believe, thus says the worst words he cld have said and started with “thank you”.
We’ve seen many times so far that LWJ doesn’t react well to those words. Plus, honestly, they sound a lot like friendzoning after such embrace, so 2nd time in about 24h, hard to take for him! And to crown it, it might be taken as the selfless WWX was doing this out of gratitude… So ofc LWJ wld push him back, and be completely devastated when WWX “confirms” that he shldn’t take it seriously!!!
Luckily they still have the investigation to pin them together, so they’ll need to talk some more and hopefully say what needs to b said! Lol
Roxilane, you look to know much about this Novel; so, could you please explain for me what the difference of “manhua”
and “donghua”? Where to find them ?
Thank you, in advance.
Manhua is manga and donghua is the animation. The manhua can ne find in english on a few sites and the donghua on gogo animé or youtube
My soul have left my body… Once again
Heart been broke so many times I don’t know what to believe 💔💔💔
Imma go scream now 🕳️🚶✌️
This is way more tragic than I thought
Ik I FEEL YOU 😭
WWX can you please stop covering up the truth with lies to repair the situation hHHH it’s just gonna cause more pain that way
He repaired nothing, NOTHING 😭
Indeed, exactly like hidding the truth from JC damaged their relation on the long term, even if at the time it might have been needed, too much was going on.
*looks at camera like im in the office*
Can I lie here for a few hours, screaming in my head at fictional characters?
Nooooooooooooooo…..😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑….this isn’t supposed to be like this nooooo Lan Zhan noooooo u messed up Wei Ying’s mind and heart noooooo this isn’t supposed to happennnnnnnn nooooooo
The feeling when you want to throw your phone so hard bcs you can’t believe how dense WWX can be *sighs hard*
I wanna cry now
I was always slightly confused as to why Lan Wangji had such a reaction every time Wei Ying thanked him. But after understanding certain things, it was because Lan Wangji assumed Wei Ying knew about his feelings for him. So whenever Wei Ying thanked him, he thought he did it for ‘repaying’ him out of kindness, not because he actually felt anything for him, or that he was being sincere about it. This chapter a prime example. He thought Wei Ying did this with him only to repay him. Not because he felt anything for him…. Ughhhh my heart! This is why communication is important people!
Can’t you just talk?~
Can’t you just talk?~
Talk about where you’re goin’~
Before you get lost~
Let each other out first~
Can’t get what you want without knowin’~
While we are disappointed with Weiying lets remember that’s how he has been taught to love.. Wen Qing before leaving him told him ‘I am sorry. Thank you’.. no one has taught either of them how to express their love… even Yanli also adored him even after her husband was killed.. for Weiying love is gratitude and forgiveness
so true!! i really can’t blame WWX for *their miscommunication one after the other.* Also, LWJ has his misconceptions too about WWX’s words/behavior and own certain stubbornness that contributes also to their miscommunication.
*weeping*
I’m heartbroken right now… Omg
*sigh* I’ve read this novel so many time (and thank your for translating it) and every time I want to smack WWX upside the head for being sooooo dense. How could such a brillian mind be so…so…dumb! OMG. Poor Lan Zhan! *pet him*
Let’s not try to look at just Lan Zhan’s side. If you are Wei Ying, and the moment he was going to confess his feelings to Lan Zhan, and Lan Zhan suddenly pushed him away, how would you feel if you were in his shoes? You would think that Lan Zhan didn’t feel that way about Wei Ying for what he showed him, so yes, we understand how Lan Zhan felt at that moment when Wei Ying thanked him, BUT don’t blame Wei Ying because Lan Zhan actions showed all Wei Ying worst fears into a reality. He didnt want to lose that last connection they have( and make it awkward afterwards. Wei Ying isn’t dense when it comes to this, its just a Misunderstanding here. A Misunderstanding that can be natural looking at what happened.
Bruh WWX really said that’s it normal😂😂I feel sorry for LZ the poor guy doesn’t even say anything and WWX was like I’m sorry like it was something bad( even though he loved every second of it😜)
T_T
that’s all I gotta say for this chapter wahhh
I think LJW is actually more together than WWX realises. Yes, he was shocked when he woke up from his drunken haze and as he has so far always said he remembers nothing, the situation, whilst obvious, would have doubtless caused his reaction.
His behaviour after is not angry or sorry, just perplexed, I feel, whilst he wraps his mind around it.
WWX on the other hand, feels like total scum, because he purposefully got him drunk first and now fears losing the dearest friend he has, let alone person he loves.
Whilst LWJ picked up on his wording, I don’t feel he believes WWX is being truthful.
My hope is he wants to be with WWX in that way again, but when they are both of a clear mind and it happens naturally between them.
LWJ woke up in the bath, just before warning not to touch him, coz he knows that he won’t be able to control himself otherwise. Yet WWX teases him some more, and the passion results from it. It was so obvious that it was mutual and deeply felt, yet right after WWX says ty, and now confirms he shouldn’t take it seriously. Ofc there’s plenty enough to feel confused!!!
WY just how deep you want this grave you’re digging for yourself to be😁 Good thing LZ’s heart can take this rollercoaster of a person cause mine can’t 🙈
Thank you for translating 🐰