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Chapter 14: The Seaside

Translated by Shiya of Exiled Rebels Scanlation

Three hours later, the jet landed at the airport where a car was already waiting for them. When they disembarked from the jet, Lu Shang’s fever had gone down a bit, but he wasn’t conscious, he seemed to be in deep sleep. One of the male caretakers was going to carry him off, but Li Sui stopped him. He leaned forward and bridal carried Lu Shang who was still wrapped in the blanket off the plane.

Li Sui visited the gym often, so his arms were strong, and to be frank he didn’t find carrying Lu Shang the least bit difficult. The second they got off the jet, they were greeted with a gust of hot wind. Li Sui turned his body sideways, using his back to shelter Lu Shang from the wind, and nudging him closer to his own chest for protection. Li Sui only let go of him after they got into the car.

The accommodations Uncle Yuen arranged was for the top floor of a hotel that was conveniently located near a hospital; quiet and secluded. Li Sui wasn’t sleepy, he guarded Lu Shang’s bed as the caretakers gave Lu Shang an adequate amount of pure oxygen to inhale, then gave him a few injections. It was already late at night when the caretakers left their room, leaving behind some medicine on the table.

Li Sui gave Lu Shang’s body a basic scrub, then he took a shower. He sneaked into the blanket beside Lu Shang after his shower, seeing the person beside him completely unguarded, he mustered up his courage and hugged Lu Shang by the waist. After all this time, he was completely accustomed to sleeping with Lu Shang. Even though they used the same shampoo, Li Sui could always smell a different aroma from Lu Shang. It was his distinct smell and it comforted Li Sui whenever he smelled it.

That night, Li Sui had a dream. He dreamed about being in a conference room. Lu Shang stood tall in front of a room full of elites, he was giving a speech, and the audience looked up to him with anticipation. Yet, he stopped abruptly, turning his head to Li Sui, he smiled. Before Li Sui could react, Lu Shang’s body shook and he fell to the ground. Everything became chaotic at once, someone called the ambulance, some laughed and Li Sui stood still in shock. Li Sui wanted to go to Lu Shang, but as if he was frozen, he couldn’t move an inch. He heard someone saying Lu Shang was dead, he heard squealing, he heard laughter… What unfolded were like the images in a zoetrope, they all passed by him so quickly. Li Sui’s eyes were filled with tears, he wanted to call out to Lu Shang, but for some reason he couldn’t choke out a single syllable.

Li Sui woke up from his dream feeling unsettled, tears were overflowing from the corners of his eyes. It was already morning; Li Sui woke up alone in bed. Li Sui’s heart shuddered, he rushed out of bed and ran out of the room barefoot. He was in a hurry, almost clashing into the mirror as he ran.

Lu Shang sat on the sofa with a glass of water in hand, beside him was a rubbish bin. His complexion wasn’t good, it seemed like he had just woken up as well.

“What’s wrong?” Startled, Lu Shang stared at Li Sui.

That was when Li Sui noticed how unseemly he was acting. He cleared his throat by coughing a few times and wiped away the tears that were still on his face, shaking his head, he said, “Nothing.”

Lu Shang didn’t say anything else, he just stared into the glass of water blankly. Li Sui couldn’t bring himself to look at Lu Shang. The dream was too real, it was so real that it almost seemed like a premonition. Li Sui was so scared that he felt his heart twist, the sensation of losing a loved one was too real, Li Sui never wanted to experience that again.

Li Sui walked towards Lu Shang with light steps, he stopped behind the sofa, leaning down, he slowly brought Lu Shang into a hug. He knew Lu Shang wouldn’t reject him.

“Had a nightmare?” Lu Shang patted his head.

“Hm. I dreamed that… you were gone.” Li Sui muttered, he wanted Lu Shang to comfort him, to tell him that it would be fine and that dreams showed the opposite. Li Sui remembered that whenever he used to get nightmares, Lu Shang would comfort him by saying that. However, Lu Shang didn’t say that today.

Li Sui lifted his head from Lu Shang’s shoulder, forcing himself to back away from the negative emotions he was immersed in. He saw the glass of water Lu Shang was holding, “Did it turn cold? I can go get a warm glass for you.”

Lu Shang shook his head, after a while he said helplessly, “The medicine is too bitter.”

The omnipotent Lu Shang was afraid of bitterness, for some reason, Li Sui found that a little funny. But he didn’t laugh, seeing the contents in the rubbish bin, Li Sui’s face stiffened. He suddenly remembered a story Leung ZiRui told him, he said when Lu Shang was young, he hated the bitterness and refused to take the medication, so the doctors had to hold him down and force the pills into his mouth. The experience made him psychologically reject bitter medicine.

“Is it too painful? I can go ask the caretakers for medicine with syrup coatings.”

Lu Shang rejected, “This type is more effective.”

Looking at the reddened whites of Lu Shang’s eyes, Li Sui felt his heart twist again. While Li Sui was staring at him hollowly, Lu Shang tried swallowing the medicine again. But every time the pill reached his esophagus, it came up again. Lu Shang coughed the pill fell onto the floor.

Li Sui immediately gave Lu Shang a towel, patting his back he asked, “Are you okay?”

Lu Shang took the towel and buried his face in the cloth, he pointed at a small medicine box and said with a husky voice, “Help me get another cup of water.”

Li Sui couldn’t take it anymore, he asked, “If taking medicine is so painful, why do you take them?”

Lu Shang cleaned his own face, and laughed a little, “I will die if I don’t take them.”

Seeing Li Sui’s hesitant expression, Lu Shang pushed his arm a bit, hurrying him to get the water. Li Sui did as he was told, bringing Lu Shang a glass of warm water and looking at Lu Shang while his heart clenched. After trying three times, Lu Shang finally swallowed all the medicine. Li Sui couldn’t even put his feelings into words as he cleaned the floor.

With Lu Shang’s current health condition, it was impossible for him to examine the construction site. Uncle Yuen expected as much as well, so he had already prepared a model of the site and some video records. Lu Shang examined all of them in the hotel and decided on a general direction for the construction.

The original plan for this plot of land was a housing estate, it would be called the Golden Sands Shore. The proposal was scrapped later, but the name stayed. The person in charge of the project was called Liu XingMing. He had average height, dark skin and dark eyes, the tip of his nose was quite wide, he looked like someone from Thailand. He was quite capable; he also did his job meticulously. The model Lu Shang just looked at was from his team as well, the details of the model were well made, and it was quite pleasing to look at.

At night, Lu Shang invited Liu XingMing to his hotel. They had a huge feast in a private room as they conversed about their plans for the construction site over dinner. Lu Shang had admiration for this middle-aged man in front of him. Lu Shang remembered Liu XingMing from his teenage years working in the company with his father. Liu XingMing was still a small-fry worker back then. Liu XingMing fought with his own ability for his position now. When compared to those entitled brats who sat in the office doing nothing all day long, Liu XingMing was truly much stronger. Luckily the project was in Liu XingMing’s hands all these years. Related government departments had tried numerous times to get the land back but Liu XingMing was the one who blocked them. He was also the one who suggested restarting construction when Lu Shang got the extra six percent shares.

“I don’t support using the land for a housing development. The real estate market isn’t great in recent years. Moreover, the plot of land is near the seashore, so the height of the building will be limited. I did some research and tourists tend to like visiting tropical islands, so building a water park would be preferable.” Liu XingMing said.

Lu Shang had similar ideas. He leaned back on the chair and after consideration, he asked, “So the problem now is the design process. Is the investigative report from the marketing department done yet?”

“It’s done, I’ll ask someone to bring it to you tonight.”

“There’s no rush. You can give it to me tomorrow, before afternoon.” As long as Lu Shang made an appearance, there was really no rush. The news would quickly reach certain people’s ears, so he had enough time to deal with this project.

Both were workaholics, once they began talking, they forgot about eating altogether. Almost all the food on the dining table went into Li Sui’s stomach, he had never eaten Hai Nan cuisine before, he ate more than half of the WengChang Chicken. Lu Shang didn’t have an appetite, plus he couldn’t eat the food. While Liu XingMing was too excited about work to care about food.

After the meal, Li Sui still looked like he could eat more, the sight made Lu Shang chuckle. Lu Shang asked the driver to bring Li Sui out to the sea, then the night market. Perhaps they might even buy a bowl of Ching Bo Leung soup (i) to fill his stomach.

T/N: (i)There are a lot of variations of the soup, but the type that’s most common would be the sweet type that is usually considered a dessert. It’s a kind of soup that contains no meat. On a side note, it was really quite tasty. I drink it in a monastery every year on Buddha’s birthday.

“You are not going?” Li Sui knew Lu Shang was probably tired, Lu Shang was still sick, and he knew Lu Shang only managed to sit through dinner with sheer will power. However, he still had a shred of hope, hoping that Lu Shang would come with him.

Yet, Lu Shang didn’t give him that opportunity, he shook his head and turned back towards the hotel. Before disappointment surfaced on Li Sui’s face, Lu Shang turned around again, “If there are things you want, buy them. You don’t have to consider the price.”

I want you. Li Sui replied in his heart, he judged himself for thinking that, and quickly slapped himself in his thoughts.

The nightlife in Hai Nan was quite bustling, a lot of people roamed around the streets even at this hour. The streets were lined up with people gambling and selling mung bean soup, it was ten at night, but the streets were even livelier than during the day. Lu Shang wasn’t here, so Li Sui wasn’t all that interested. He leaned on the vehicle window, gazing at the night view in silence. It was Lu Shang who suggested this, so he would see it through nonetheless, as if it was an important mission.

Xiao Zhao was driving the car, Li Sui saw a few familiar vehicles in the rearview mirror. He asked with suspicion, “Are those cars following us?”

Xiao Zhao glanced at the mirror and replied indifferently, “They were following us from the beginning, and they are arranged by Lu Lao Ban.”

Li Sui asked, “Arranged to do what?”

“To ensure your safety I presume. Didn’t you notice that they follow you every time you go out?” Xiao Zhao laughed.

Li Sui didn’t notice at all, he was sensitive to gazes, but that was limited on humans, it didn’t include cars. Now that Li Sui took a better look at the cars, he did have vague memories of seeing these cars before.

“Do you have anything you want to buy? Shall we go to the markets?” Xiao Zhao asked.

“I’ll pass, I don’t like crowds.” Li Sui said. On this point, he was just like Lu Shang. However, Li Sui avoided the crowd because he found it difficult to overcome the fear of socializing with people while Lu Shang simply liked the peace and quiet.

“Aww. What a waste, Lu Lao Ban handed me a card for the special occasion too.” Xiao Zhao waved Li Sui over, “Look, there are a lot of shops here. They carry a lot of rare merchandise.”

Li Sui’s interest wasn’t peeked by the bright stalls, instead he caught a lighthouse with the corner of his eyes, his somber eyes lit up in an instant, “Is the sea nearby?”

“Yes. If we turn left ahead and drive for around twenty minutes, we will be at the sea.”

“I want to go to the seaside.”


It was dark, so the beach was basically empty. They only saw an old lady picking up plastic bottles. Li Sui had never been to the beach before, his usual tense façade melted quickly, revealing a childish expression. Li Sui took his shoes and socks off, jumping and running on the soft sand.

The wind here was hot even at night, it felt like someone was tickling him when the wind blew on his face. Li Sui played in the water for a while, then he got out and texted Lu Shang.

After Li Sui had left, Lu Shang called Leung ZiRui while standing in front of the window.

“What’s the matter?” Lu Shang got a text from Leung ZiRui in the afternoon, saying that he had important things to talk about, and he emphasized not letting Li Sui know.

“About your surgery, there is finally a breakthrough.” Leung ZiRui continued, “Do you remember that super smart, former professor of mine?”

“Leon, was it?”

“Yeah, him. Yesterday, a junior of mine told me that he saw Leon in Cuba. I’m going to go check it out.”

When it came to this person, Lu Shang had quite the impression, he really was a renowned physician.

“Lu Shang, my uncle did an operation on you again, didn’t he? But perhaps you can put the matter with Li Sui aside for now, a heart transplantation isn’t the only way. If I can reach Dr. Leon, then I’m certain there will be better options.”

Lu Shang sat on the sofa, he felt relieved for some reason, “That would be the best.”

“But with your condition now, the next few years won’t be easy.”

Lu Shang lowered his head, Li Sui’s black eyes flashed across his mind, he replied with a low voice, “I know, I’ll be fine.”

Lu Shang hung the phone up, black clouds roamed the skies. It was about to rain. Lu Shang sat on the bed in a daze, which was interrupted by the ringing of his phone, Li Sui had texted him.

[I saw the ocean, it was beautiful. But I can’t buy it, so I can’t bring it home.]

The vivid image of Li Sui saying this rose in Lu Shang’s mind. His mouth formed a slight curve as he typed back, [It’s going to rain soon, come back home quickly.]

Li Sui looked up to the sky. As expected, the pitch-black sky was covered with thick clouds, the winds around him began to pick up as well. Li Sui made sure to reply [I will] and returned to the car.

Xiao Zhao was waiting for him; he was planning to fetch Li Sui if he didn’t return. Being near the sea during a rainstorm was no joke, if a wave came crashing towards the shore, they probably wouldn’t even find the corpse.

The engine started; Xiao Zhao calmed down only after driving far away from the beach. Li Sui’s foot had sand on it, but he didn’t mind. He had a seashell in his hands, he looked at it from every angle, it was something he just dug up from the beach.

“Is that a gift for Lu Lao Ban?” Xiao Zhao laughed.

Li Sui only replied “Hm”, not even raising his head.


T/N: For those who understood what Leung ZiRui said, go read the last sentence of the summary again. Read it as literally as possible.

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June 25, 2019 3:08 pm

Ugh, although I expected it, still, it hurts so much…

June 25, 2019 4:27 pm

Fuck that is just nasty. I didn’t expect this of Lu Shang. Taking in a child, giving him all the care in the world, teaching him what is the meaning of living truly while having that purpose in the back of your mind is disgusting. Poor guy thinks of him as his saviour and cares about him so damn much and then you go and tell me that he was brought in because of this shit in the first place? Tsk!

June 25, 2019 4:55 pm

Ohdeargod, so that’s why… I start to condemn Lu Shang and all his ally for this. Dr Leung (old and young), Meng Xinyou and her father, they all knew, didn’t they?
This was worse than that novel “Never Let Me Go”, there at least the recipient did not groomed the donor well before the sacrificial procedure.

*now i eager to read what the contract said about all this deal*

June 25, 2019 5:41 pm

I think he gave up that idea pretty fast, more or less at the beginning. He decided not to adopt Li Sui because he didn’t want his enemies to harm him after his death, no? Also, there were some hints that his subordinates were sure that he is too kindhearted to use Li Sui. Even so, I hope Li Sui makes him suffer a bit (emotionally) when the truth about his original intention comes out. Wanna see some drama and then the catharsis,I would love that.

June 25, 2019 6:02 pm

Honestly? I’m not surprised. It’s understandable that they’d go to such lengths to make Lu Shang better. Nevertheless, knowing doesn’t stop me from feeling sad for Li Sui. I can imagine him accepting all this when he finds out, but I can also see him questioning if everything Lu Shang ever did for him was real.
Well, I’ve been buckled up for angst since I found out Lu Shang was sick aka on chapter 1, so come at me!

Thanks for the chapter! 🙂

June 25, 2019 9:04 pm

I’m confused. Didn’t he take Li Sui in because of some history involving his bullet wound scar?

I’ve been imagining that Li Sui somehow saved him from an assassination attempt as a child, and lost his memories somehow, and they couldn’t find him again…

Unless the bullet wound was him escaping as a child, that the Lu family had kidnapped a perfect matching heart donor… I NEED MORE DETAILS!!!!!

June 25, 2019 11:25 pm

Ah, I just understood what that sentence in the summary meant. That option is a no go, Lu Shang! Think of something else entirely. Listen to your doctor and find better solution. And besides, you already have his heart, but not in a literal way.

Thank you for the chapter!

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June 25, 2019 11:49 pm

i think i get the meaning. but, let’s hope for the best for this wonderful couple 💓💓

thank you for this chapter😘

June 26, 2019 6:31 am

I’m speechless! So that was his True purpose?!

But it seems Lu Shang has decided not to use that option. And If there are more treatments, then It’s not necessary. Even If Li Sui would it gladly.

Thanks for the chapter!

June 26, 2019 7:05 am

Ouch….. I do think that Lu Shang would never go with that plan, but if Li Sui knew, then I bet he’d offer his heart willingly.

Thank you so much for the translation❤❤❤

June 26, 2019 9:58 am

Everyone is condemning him, but go read the last line of the summary, as Shiya said in the last T/N, love and caring don’t always start in the best ways. Even Daisies can grow in shit.

June 26, 2019 9:59 am

OMG.. what LZR said scared me shitless… I always thought he was a kind doctor.. but how cold blooded were these people?? I mean.. what were their original intention?.. kill the boy to harvest the heart? 😱😱

*sigh* I wanna read parts when Lu Shang start to have feeling for this boy.. and only want the boy’s heart figuratively, not literally. Damn it.. I wanna read the “promised” fluffs 😭😭

June 26, 2019 2:32 pm

Thank you!

June 26, 2019 2:42 pm

What?? I’m so sad now

June 26, 2019 11:45 pm

Wow!! Poor kid cannot catch a break, huh? 1st-the rough upbringing in the bar, 2nd- to be considered the scapegoat for the upcoming deal with the “cosmetic factory”, 3rd-heart donor without even realizing it…so sad!! The only redeeming fact IS the last sentence of the summary! Thank You for the translation!

July 14, 2019 10:03 pm

what with everyone so weirded out, did ya all not read the summary carefully? its certain that our gong is created for the purpose to be a vessel, or at the very least he was founded as such from a very young age. somehow some people know of the Lu family plan and decided to kill the baby, but alas he survived. meeting him again was a good boon for our shou, however he do have the unfortunate character defect of trying to be a good person, and decided to raise the child himself instead of shoving him to the… Read more »

July 14, 2019 10:09 pm

the Lu family must had found the vessel long ago, but their rivals found out and decided to kill the baby. that’s how our gong got shot. somehow he survived eh, maybe the person who supposed to kill him felt sorry that a baby was raised as a vessel and dropped him off into an orphanage…

December 13, 2019 9:08 pm

The author did a really good job on this chapter. She has been giving us all these images of the sweet and gentle relationship between Lu Shang and Li Sui. I love how she foreshadows the revelation by showing us the scene of Lu Shang struggling to take his bitter medicine in the morning and then she casually leaves us with a bitter pill of our own to swallow at the end of the chapter.
Thanks Shiya and EXR for translating this great story!

February 19, 2020 4:40 pm

He wants his fucking heart!?!?!? He is a monster 😭

April 11, 2020 7:23 pm

This chapter clear my thought..because back then Im confused…so many questions…

Hoping to end this good…

May 1, 2020 6:42 am

I feel so fucked up by this spoiler!! Poor kid, he has been living in such bad state, and even the person who saved him has this purpose at first.

August 9, 2020 8:04 am

Well, there went my good feelings for Lu Shang. How could you! And the contract that he signed was probably a form giving consent to the surgery, but he didn’t even read it. I can’t even with this!! Li Sui deserves better. This story is going to kill me

September 2, 2020 9:02 pm

Ah fxck! He wants Li Sui’s heart! Not in a romantic way. Lu Shang wants Li Sui’s heart literally😭
Now, the question was answered 😭

October 25, 2020 6:34 pm

So that was what’s in the contract…I really did not expect this. I feel sorry for Li Sui, the person he considered as his savior turned out to have sheltered him for another purpose. Giving the child hope, only to break it apart. Rearing them high, only to let them fall high. Cruel indeed. Though, can you all blame Lu Shang entirely too? At the face of death, even if you convinced yourself that you’re ready, deep inside your heart there’s still that tiny hope of wanting to prolong life. He isn’t a saint either, if he was, could he… Read more »

November 25, 2020 2:22 am

😱 This just turned into a horror novel!

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