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Chapter 35

Translated by Lia of Exiled Rebels Scanlations

XiaYao just happened to be seated with his side to the entrance, so it didn’t take him very long to discover Mrs. Zhou, who was coming his way with ZhouDu in tow.

XiaYao paled; he rose from his seat, a little flustered.

Fang Zeyu noticed that XiaYao looked a little bit off. He followed his gaze and turned just in time to find ZhouDu being pulled along by a beautiful auntie, headed in their direction.

“Yaoyao, I see you’re out with friends,” Mrs. Zhou greeted XiaYao cordially.

XiaYao didn’t dare look at ZhouDu, he only watched Mrs. Zhou and gave her a vague “yeah” as a reply.

ZhouDu’s mother nudged her son, “Go get me a strawberry-flavoured one.” Then, she walked over and sat herself down next to XiaYao.

ZhouDu’s mother said, “It’s a real scorcher today, isn’t it? Is this your friend? Aren’t you a handsome young man.” She beamed at Fang Zeyu.

Fang Zeyu greeted Mrs. Zhou courteously.

Mrs. Zhou continued, “It sure is hot today, what were you out getting?” She turned to ask XiaYao.

XiaYao replied, “Just some reference materials.”

Once ZhouDu had bought the ice cream, he approached them alongside Fang Yaoyao. When Fang Yaoyao caught sight of ZhouDu’s mother, she exclaimed, “Wow, you must be ZhouDu’s sister! You’re so gorgeous!”

Amused by her words, Mrs. Zhou laughed, “What sister, I’m his mother.” After that, she took the ice cream ZhouDu had handed over to her, and scooped some into her mouth with a spoon.

When ZhouDu had sat down, he turned to look out the window. Fang Yaoyao, on the other hand, chitter-chattered away with Mrs. Zhou.

XiaYao’s mind was in turmoil, but it wasn’t like he could explain himself to ZhouDu at this moment in time; he could do nothing but sit on one side with an anxious face, not bothering with another bite of his ice cream.

After she finished her ice cream, Mrs. Zhou picked up a napkin and dabbed her lips with it gracefully. She turned and said to XiaYao, “Yaoyao, come back with Auntie, it’s too hot out.”

XiaYao initially didn’t want to trouble Mrs. Zhou; however, he was afraid that ZhouDu would interpret his refusal as desire to stay with Fang Zeyu, so he got up and followed her.

XiaYao and ZhouDu were both in the backseat; neither of them spoke to the other. XiaYao stole glances at ZhouDu out of the corner of his eye and found him straight-faced with seemingly not an ounce of inclination to pay him any mind.

He felt uneasy, but he couldn’t talk their problems through right now with Mrs. Zhou just up front. He thought about calling ZhouDu up later once he got back.

The car rolled forward slowly, then suddenly a ringing tone arose from the driver’s seat. Mrs. Zhou reached for her bag and opened it, she dug out the noisy cell phone.

When she saw that the caller ID was her babysitter, she picked up right away.

“Hello? Uh-huh, uh-huh, what? Ok, I’m on my way. Don’t worry, okay. I’m driving, so I’ve got to hang up.”

As soon as Mrs. Zhou ended the call, she pulled the car over to the curb. She turned around to face XiaYao looking apologetic, “Yaoyao, I’m terribly sorry. Auntie won’t be able to send you back. Something came up with ZhouZhou, so I have to hurry home. How about this—I’ll have ZhouDu drop you off.”

“That’s okay…” XiaYao answered hastily, “Auntie, you head home, I’ll just take the bus on my own.”

“How is that going to work? The heat is insufferable. Let ZhouDu get you home in a taxi.” She shifted her gaze to her son and said, “Make sure you get XiaYao home, okay?”

Since XiaYao was deathly afraid of inconveniencing ZhouDu, he continued to decline. ZhouDu, meanwhile, got out of the car without saying a word.

He stood outside and focused on the roof of the vehicle, not bothering to spare a glance to XiaYao, who was still inside.

Seeing as how ZhouDu had already disembarked the car, XiaYao thought it would come off as rude if he refused any further. He could only push the door open and get out.

Before Mrs. Zhou rolled up the car window, she instructed ZhouDu repeatedly to send XiaYao safely home. Afterwards, she drove off, sending dust particles flying.

XiaYao stood awkwardly next to ZhouDu; just when he parted his lips in an attempt to explain, ZhouDu raised his hand and successfully hailed a taxi. XiaYao had once again missed the opportunity to explain himself.

The taxi brought them to the front of the alley and came to a halt. After settling the bill, ZhouDu opened the door and got out of the car. XiaYao took a deep breath and followed behind. The pair walked toward the small alley which had hardly any people in it.

XiaYao expected ZhouDu to ask him why he was with Fang Zeyu back there, but after waiting for some time, ZhouDu didn’t show any signs that he wanted to strike up a conversation, XiaYao stopped and whispered, “ZhouDu.”

Up ahead, ZhouDu’s footsteps came to a stop, and he didn’t turn around, nor did he keep moving. XiaYao couldn’t see ZhouDu’s expression; feeling a little flustered, he picked up his pace and caught up to ZhouDu’s side.

He looked at ZhouDu’s face anxiously and found that ZhouDu was staring blankly off in the distance.

“ZhouDu.” XiaYao weighed his words, “Please listen to my explanation.”

ZhouDu still refused to meet XiaYao’s gaze.

XiaYao attempted to reach for the corner of ZhouDu’s shirt, but ZhouDu slapped his hand away.

“Explain?” With his tone grim, he turned to stare XiaYao down, “Have you forgotten what you promised me? You told me that if you ever see that guy again, you won’t give him a moment of your time.”

XiaYao’s mouth opened and shut before he continued with difficulty, “I, I just ran into him, so I just…”

“So you just followed him?” ZhouDu’s chest heaved, as he said bitterly, “Are you a dog? Do you follow around every person you meet?”

ZhouDu’s insults left XiaYao anguished, he subconsciously took a step back.

The corners of ZhouDu’s eyes were reddened, he tore into him further, “Or is it that you’ve always been this way, you will give yourself up over to any attractive man that comes along.”

XiaYao paled. With quivering lips, he struggled to explain, “No… it isn’t like that.”

At that moment, jealousy had gotten the better of ZhouDu. Despite knowing how those words would hurt XiaYao, he had lost control of himself. He clenched his fists and breathed heavily, and repeated to himself, ‘ZhouDu, shut up. You need to apologize to XiaYao.’

All traces of colour had already left XiaYao’s face; he didn’t know how to explain himself to ZhouDu.

The two were silent for a long time, and ZhouDu gradually came to his senses. He looked at XiaYao, who was pushed into the corner by his harsh words. His heart ached at the sight.

“I…” His mouth opened and shut and he reached out to touch XiaYao. Suddenly, buzzing sounds of vibrations came from XiaYao’s pocket.

ZhouDu’s face darkened. Only he knew XiaYao’s phone number, so who would be calling him right now? The fingers which had initially reached for XiaYao changed course and dived straight into XiaYao’s pocket; he fished the phone out. ——

Fang Zeyu.

The three characters on the caller ID sent ZhouDu’s entire body trembling, and seemingly out of nowhere, all of that pent-up rage completely receded just as quickly as it came. He regarded XiaYao with stone cold eyes. Word by word, he enunciated, “Care to explain this?”

The ringtone chimed on merrily in the empty alley.

XiaYao’s voice was so hoarse it was scary. He began with difficulty, “I gave him my number because…”

ZhouDu suddenly let out a chuckle˜—a very, very soft chuckle. XiaYao looked at him surprised, and saw that ZhouDu’s smile never even had the chance to reach his eyes before completely fading out of sight.

He lifted the phone, expressionless, and he hurled it at the wall behind himself. With a “bang”, the phone made contact with the wall and was instantly smashed to pieces. Once again, the alley fell silent.

XiaYao hadn’t expected that ZhouDu would get this bent out of shape. His heart thumped, achingly and in despair.

After he had smashed the phone, without throwing a glance in XiaYao’s direction, ZhouDu turned and walked out of the alley.

XiaYao lost track of how long he had stood there, and only when his right leg began to turn numb did he fall out of his stupor.

He cast his gaze down at the scattered remains of his phone on the ground and crouched down slowly, collecting the pieces bit by bit.

He was picking up the pieces with one hand while rubbing his eyes with the other. He thought that shedding tears over a small thing like this would probably make him look like a fool.

ZhouDu probably didn’t like him anymore.

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53 Comments

  1. I love the story, but I feel like the author is purposely creating trouble and enciting a misunderstanding when it wasn’t very necessary (in my humblest opinion.) Thank you so much for the translation!!

  2. Noooooooo!!!!!! Zhou Du! How could you say those things to Yaoyao!!! I thought you love him😢😢😢😢.
    Xia Yao!!!! You, too!!! You know how possessive your man is, and yet you still doing things that made him misunderstood…. 🤨🤨🤨🤨.

  3. Xia yau… you really a weak will person… how come yoj just silance all the time and let people do what they want you to do all the time… *sigh*
    Some people said that love make you strong, but some said they make you weak. In xia yao case, love make him weak 😥 hope he become strong later
    Thank you for new chapter 😘😘😘

  4. Thank you for the translation… I hate this. Why did XY took ZD’s feeling lightly. Since last chapter, I just want to scream at his ears, don’t save another man’s number on the cellphone your boyfriend bought for you.

    I know that ZD still like him, and I hope XY could do extra effort to placate ZD.

  5. This plotline is ridiculous. Author, give a bit more credit to your audience’s IQ and EQ, also please respect your characters more.
    This is dog-blood drama.
    1. XiaYao should’ve known ZhouDu’s personality since he lived a lifetime with the latter.
    2. He broke his promise and didn’t even remember it.
    3. Fang Zeyu is already so obvious at this point that this is not just ZhouDu’s blind over-protectiveness anymore.
    4. What the f**k is wrong with his head that he misjudged ZhaoDu for two lifetimes?? You two have a lover’s spat and he suddenly stop loving you just like that? You have very (very) low self-esteem.

    From the way it looks, their past life’s tragedy was not caused by ZhouDu’s passive character and inattentiveness, but caused by XiaYao’s clinical-level anxiety disorder and negative thought pattern.

    1. You can’t blame XY. ZD is also at his faults. He too possesive and tsundere. I understand XY’s personality. He is a type of people who could not refuse people’s offer if they’re persistent and this kind of personality in my opinion usually has trust issue(?). You could say they would believe what other people say..? Also, he feel bad seeing FZY got beaten up by ZD because of ZD’s jealousy. From what I see, FZY just want to be friend with XY. The only weird to me is the author seems want to keep FZY like that, didn’t afraid of ZD because of something will happen in future which I don’t know. FZY probably a key to trigger some scene?

      1. Zhou Du is too possessive and tusndere, that I can agree.
        My point is, didn’t Xiao Yao already know about this fact since his previous life?? It’s not like Zhou Du’s personality suddendly become OOC. XY loves that kind of man and spent one lifetime with him. He should be able to recognize that FZY is a big landmine.

        As one of many readers of this story, I personally cannot stand people who put very little importance on their promises. XY should have known that, with or without promise, Zhou Du will be angry if he was too close to FZY. Not only did they spend time together in an ice-cream shop (seemingly alone because FZY’s sister was conveniently away from table), on a weekend, he even let FZY swap phone numbers. OF COURSE, Zhou Du WILL BE angry. I’m calling this dog-blood drama because it’s too corny and convenient.

        Zhou Du is a posessive hot-blooded high school boy. If your girlfriend/ boyfriend spent time with a third wheel you both agreed to never meet up again, of course you will be angry. Everyone feels that way. Xiao Yao is lousy with explanations. He didn’t form a single proper sentence that can clear away Zhou Du’s anxiety.

        I’m putting a lot more expectations on XY compared to ZD because XY is ‘supposed to be’ more mature, have lived longer and know ZD well. ZD is still in the middle of learning more about his boyfriend. He is not yet mature enough to ‘not’ break the phone. And he doesn’t know XY well enough yet to realize his angry words will make XY think they are over, right away.

        And you and I disagree about FZY. I think he is bent for XY. But nothing can be sure unless we read more chapters. Let’s bet on it, hehe!

  6. they’re both really stupid emotionally holy shit. Thanks for the chapter! Sometimes I want to message these authors and tell them that dogblood drama is taking the easy way out of actually writing a relationship.

  7. Woah. This..
    I forgot XY actually transmigrated. If I didnt read the comments I’d forget all about it.
    Wtf really. Why is he acting this way? He should see a doctor. His thoughts are waaaaaaaay far away from what it is.

  8. Why is everyone blaming XY wtf?? Yeah I get he already knows what ZD’s personality is like but he’s also a nice person who can’t be mean to anyone like ZD is?? ZD is acting WAY too possessive and it’s not cute.being in a relationship with someone who won’t let you breathe next to anyone else just because they’re jealous is not a heathy relationship. And smashing his phone was ugly HE’S the one y’all should be mad at.

    1. wow, finally someone with a lick of sense! I originally started reading this thinking it would be just full of angst (and sign me the frick up for that, I just love to suffer) and misunderstandings, but ultimately everything would clear up and they would have a happy, healthy relationship… what I got instead was XY first blackmailing ZD into being with him for seven years in an abusive relationship, because otherwise he would let his baby sister die, then they die in a car crash and he goes back in time, decides not to be such a douche anymore (first good decision! other than maybe breaking up with him in the first place), still decides to date a teenager while he is already mentally an adult, and instead it’s now ZD who becomes the abuser, incredibly jealous, possessive, beats up anyone who talks to XY, almost threatened him with violence (???!?!!?!), makes him apologise for stuff that was in no way his fault, now flips out without even letting him explain himself and smashes his phone?? excuse me? how is any of that okay?! just being a “teenager” doesn’t excuse him, he’s (almost?) 18, he should know better by now! and every darn fujo in the comments is like “noo XY, you should know ZD better than that at this point, go and make up with him you idiot uwu” like ??? the only reason I’m even still reading this is (because I’m procrastinating from doing uni stuff) because it’s just like watching a trainwreck, you just can’t look away. heck.

      1. I’m totally replying to 3 year old comments all over this story, but YA DAMN RIGHT!!

        I signed up for the drama and angst, but not like this.

        The abusive side of ZD is making me question the adult!ZD. We barely see him except for a fourth of a chapter and it’s making me rethink our original impression of him. Like we all know he was conned into a relationship, but it strikes me as odd a man with such a wild, mood swinging personality would let himself stay such a relationship. And ffs, how do we know he’s not out there smashing dishes or more phones if XY talks to some random at a Cafe?? What other shit has XY been subject to? Honestly the college years would be a nightmare to read about.

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