Stop Thinking Chapter 28: Spending time and drinking

Chapter 28: Spending time and drinking

Translated by Addis of Exiled Rebels Scanlations

Editor: Karai

After promising Lin Hui, Ruan Yu was worried that Gu Xiuhan would not allow him to go out and play.

If not for the fear of making Ruan Yu teary-eyed, Gu Xiuhan probably would have done the perverted thing of confining Ruan Yu in his arms from morning to night, reading official documents and sniffing his head to no end.

Do or do not say, he had to make a choice. Ruan Yu read that clearly.

Ruan Yu imagined what Gu Xiuhan’s reaction would be if he told him he was going to a party and wasn’t going to take him along, and that he had completely torn off his abstinence pretense.

He would probably be confined and immobilized.

The arms that were out of proportion would strangle the body a bit, but he would not cry out in pain, because if he did, Gu Xiuhan would become even more frightening.

Even through the dark sunken in eyes, he could follow along to the cool eyebrows and trace the jaw. That appearance could clearly stop the fish babies from crying at night.

The heart sound was unexpectedly fragile and pitiful.

It was as if the heart full of cherished love had overflowed, obsessed, and if he were not able to express any of it, he would not be able to bear it. 

As a result, Ruan Yu also thought Gu Xiuhan could not be helped, once he was coaxed into a soft little fish cake, so soft that the tail of the fish could not flap up.

This way, when it came to what Gu Xiuhan said was what, he at most would grunt no, and finally had to be forced by the yín power in tears to let him go with Lin Hui.

These days, Ruan Yu was indeed bullied by Gu Xiuhan to the point of stress and fainting, took the liberty of rehearsing in his head, and came to the angry conclusion that “Gu Xiuhan has long ceased to be the Brother Xiuhan who was obedient to me, and he was unreasonable in not allowing me to go out with Sister Xiaohui.” the confusing conclusion … I don’t know who is more unreasonable.

The result was that Ruan Yu sneaked out to a party that afternoon while Gu Xiuhan was away from his quarters.

The first time he rebelled in front of Gu Xiuhan’s eyes, Ruan Yu was half-hearted and half-arrogant, hesitant to put his tail up and rebel to the end, and before he could even sit on the couch, he stopped the waiter to whisper for the last cocktail. Before the words were out of his mouth, Lin Hui, a single mother of a baby fish, came forward and obstructed him mercilessly, shoving a zero-alcohol juice drink into Ruan Yu’s hand and squeezing his face with satisfaction.

“Be good, baby, I don’t dare let you make mistakes.” Lin Hui directly seized the position next to Ruan Yu, occupying a favorable fish-sucking terrain, and said with a big grin, “If you become a little drunk fish in my place, your brother will kick both me and my brother into the sea to collect garbage…”

[Speaking of which… The possessiveness and protectiveness of Admiral Gu towards my son is really the best.]

[The last time he was at the ball, he was staring at Ruan Ruan with such affection, and that preciousness, only Ruan Ruan himself didn’t notice it… Pfft…]

[But my son is not stupid anyway! My kid’s little brain is just slippery!]

[Wait… What was I thinking in front of him.]

[Did you hear that?! Aaaaahhhhhhhhh! I’m sorry I forgot!]

“Brother Xiuhan is very reasonable and will not punish you with picking up trash…” Ruan Yu subconsciously retorted, his ears faintly twitching, his face suddenly bursting red, “Sister Xiao Hui, you think of something else, OK.”

“Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!” Lin Hui blushed deeply up to her ears, clutching her head and shouting, “I thought I could control it, this head does not listen, I help you teach it, I punish myself okay…”

“No, it’s okay, Sister Hui,” Ruan Yu felt so embarrassed that want to dive into the sea to find a giant clam shell to burrow into, yet he still calmly whispered to comfort Lin Hui, “let’s play something to distract you… “

He was really not angry, after all, he had long been accustomed to the human brain circuit, and waiting until the ability to advance some more, he could also control the ability to read the brain signals to a certain extent, and wouldn’t listen if wanted, it was not a problem.

The key words in Lin Hui’s heart sound were reverberating in his ears, stubborn as if they had grown in his ears.

Deep love.

What the…

Ruan Yu’s mind flashed to Gu Xiuhan’s deep eyebrows.

The pupils were like a thin shell of ice covered with ink, cool but light, and when his eyes were quietly fixed on Ruan Yu’s face, he was indeed… The deep emotion.

This was a very accurate description.

It was good to be truly liked by someone like this, but Ruan Yu’s mouth dropped shallowly as if he was being bullied.

Because the tip of his heart was so sore that it felt like he was pinched by that word.

“…”

Ruan Yu’s eyelashes lowered, deflating his cheeks as he chased after the pure juice version of the bubble ball at the bottom of the cup. He suspected that Lin Hui had given him a special version of the small stuff, the bottom of the cup was full of balls, so he could suck it all.

But it wasn’t as good as the one he had on the dance day.

It was sour and not sweet at all.

The majority of those who came to the party were students from the same college as Lin Hui, and those who could be invited by Lin Hui to play were all good, and there was no spoken strange things with their hearts, but at most there were people who were secretly stoned on Ruan Yu and Gu Xiuhan. They were all like Lin Hui, who accidentally got high on a few bites of his thoughts and realized that the main person was near and scrambled to clean up the waste… These people taught Ruan Yu a few party games, and Ruan Yu cooperated seriously and played them happily, but his mind always drifted to other places.

He obviously wanted to escape for a day to cool down his brain.

How to sneak out for an hour to think about Gu Xiuhan.

Does Ruan Yu still have a little bit of talent?

Because there had been some distractions, his mental state was comparable to sleepwalking, so Ruan Yu did not realize that sunset had long since passed.

He normally came out to play and went home not long after dark.

Ruan Yu said goodbye to his new friends, and while walking back quickly, he apprehensively checked several communication apps on the terminal, fearing that Gu Xiuhan had sent him a message, but his apprehension value increased several times after he found that he had not been reprimanded but there were no other messages either.

The arrogance that he had when he was sneaking out of the house was gone, and he was left alone.

It was over, he must be angry with him for going out to play until almost midnight without even saying goodbye.

When he returned to the room, Ruan Yu unlocked the door with his fingerprints, and wanted to peek through the door, but his face was staggered by the heavy smell of alcohol in the living room.

The whole house was left unlit, and only the hazy cold light cast by the satellites outside the floor-to-ceiling windows barely outlined the slender figure on the sofa and the piles of wine bottles standing or lying on the low table, setting the extraordinarily bleak and lonely atmosphere.

Ruan Yu was dumbfounded.

He was stunned outside the door for a while, not daring to make a big move, quietly striding across the small crab-like squeeze through the door, and then carefully covering the door, his panicked face tense.

Gu Xiuhan had always been a synonym for self-restraint, such as alcohol that would damage the rational things was never touched, much less the possibility of being decadently drunk.

How could… he drink so much?

In fact, there was no need to ask, and even an idiot would know that it was because he was still out in the middle of the night, so he was in a bad mood – although there were no flowers and no alcohol allowed.

Ruan Yu looked ashamed and curled his fingers tightly, his palm lines sweating.

After a torturous silence, Gu Xiuhan finally spoke.

“Went to play?”

It was a question, but very sure. Perhaps the guards had reported it.

“Well, that, it was with Sister Hui and others…”

Ruan Yu was about to say some cheerful nonsense to lighten the mood when he caught two low and somber heart notes.

[Growing up, having friends.]

[Ruan Ruan…]

[Going to be estranged from me.]

“How!”

Ruan Yu was so dismayed that he shook his head desperately, and was playing a ventriloquist to prepare for the debate, when Gu Xiuhan already stood up and walked close to him.

Strangely enough, the smell of alcohol that permeated the room was dispersed when Gu Xiuhan approached, as if no amount of alcohol could cover the cold, frosty aura of his body.

“Ruan Ruan…” Gu Xiuhan lowered his eyes, the environment was dim, lining the pair of black eyes pupil more intensely, more dangerously, and more profoundly.

With a single glance, it made Ruan Yu’s back seep out in a fine sweat.

“Do you hate me?”

[So much so that you need to sneak out.]

[Just because I like you.]

[Is it… Does the sight of me bother you?]

“I don’t… I really don’t… Don’t assume anything…”

Ruan Yu wanted to cry when he was hated because he liked the other person, just by thinking about it for a second.

He was anxiously standing on tiptoe, trying to coax the large wolf dog that seemed to have the tips of its ears drooping down, rubbing its fur and pressing its face, but he was afraid that Gu Xiuhan, who was clearly not in the right state of mind, would drag him to the sofa and arch him, so he had to retreat and ask without words, “Are you drunk?”

“No.”

Gu Xiuhan took another step closer.

“Then you are… Jealous.”

Ruan Yu wanted to explain that it was not necessary, many of the people playing together today were girls, although there were also boys but they were good students, no one had any strange thoughts about him, at most they secretly muttered something like “so cute” in their hearts, there was no jealousy to eat.

Gu Xiuhan stared down at Ruan Yu and was strangely silent for a few moments before he let out a “hmm”.

And in those few seconds of silence, a series of images invaded Ruan Yu’s mind.

The first was a pair of white and tender wrists that were tightly bound by military-style belts.

The other end of the belt was tied in a dead-end knot on the post, because the owner of the wrists kept struggling, and in essence, not much strength, the wooden bed frame knocked against the wall in small increments, clanging.

Until the pair of worn red wrists were tired of struggling, only accompanied by a weak and delicate sob, deep in the goose down soft pillow.

Ruan Yu’s face froze in fear.

[Read it?]

Gu Xiuhan didn’t even move his eyebrows, and let him read like a broken pot.

[I’ve gone crazy with jealousy.]

[Are the new boys good-looking?]

[They should be about the same age as you.]

[Can’t wait to get you back.]

[…]

One on top of the other bursts of heartfelt sounds, jealousy jumbled in.

“You should stop thinking about it…”

Ruan Yu panicked and avoided looking at the other, trying to look away, but only after turning, his jaw was clamped at a tiny angle.

Gu Xiuhan’s palm was large, holding Ruan Yu’s jaw and half of his face like a small handful of snow, looking so brutal that he lost his mind, but in fact the force was like a gentle caress.

The small arm and the back of the hand were bursting with veins, but it was just a wrestle with themselves.

He held him but caused no pain..

Even if you are angry and sour, you can’t bear it.

Ruan Yu was shy and scared, his face was suddenly white and red as he tilted his head, pitifully being pinched.

“… Sorry, Ruan Ruan,” just when Ruan Yu thought Gu Xiuhan might really want to bully someone this time, the shackles on his cheeks suddenly loosened.

“I’ve lost my temper again.”

Gu Xiuhan withdrew his hand, and his voice was hoarse.

[It’s just that I’m afraid you’ll leave me.]

[I know it’s selfish to think that way.]

[I didn’t want to scare you, but I did every time… I’m sorry.]

[Those things are really just thinking, not doing.]

[…]

“I won’t bother you anymore, go rest.”

Both the heart sound and the words spoken were pitiful.

Ruan Yu practically visualized a wolf dog, whose wounds were too painful to resist, letting out a whimper, but on the surface still gritted his teeth and pretended to be tough.

When he wanted to explain, Gu Xiuhan had already gone to his room.

Ruan Yu was originally a soft love, easy to empathize with, was so excited, for a while did not slow down, his eyes and nose were red.

Although it was midnight, it was impossible to sleep, he could only lie on the bed and toss and turn to spread out like a fish cake.

It felt like Gu Xiuhan was different from his usual self today, there was a little bit of indescribable… Wrong.

But the heart sound read clearly, Gu Xiuhan thought that way.

Brother Xiuhan’s determination would not be so strong that he would not even be able to fake his heart tone.

There were some memory flashes of baby Ruan Yu in his mind, but Ruan Yu’s heart was in turmoil and he couldn’t catch it, instead he remembered the words that Lin Hui was thinking in the afternoon.

–very affectionate.

–very precious.

Perhaps since the moment he was picked up from the ocean by the steel giant manipulated by Gu Xiuhan, Ruan Yu had never swam out of the palm of that gentle, huge hand.

It had carefully and cautiously gathered the baby in the palm.

Ruan Yu’s chest felt a surge of indefinable sadness again, not strong, as soft as spider silk, just an afternoon and a night, or tangled around the inability to swing.

It might be sad for Gu Xiuhan who secretly and deeply liked him for a long time. For Gu Xiuhan who was jealous, bitter, longing, and withholding the mood and sadness.

This surging emotion came wave after wave, like a rising tide, gradually overwhelming all other hesitant fears.

He did not want Gu Xiuhan to show that look of calmness even though he was clearly hurt.

Ruan Yu hoped that Gu Xiuhan in the future whether he was sad, jealous, unhappy, or wanted anything…. He could tell him openly.

He wanted to respond to love, but also to try to understand, bear, adapt to those desires.

He wanted to start accepting Gu Xiuhan little by little.

There were a few details that needed to be negotiated before the relationship could be formalized, and Ruan Yu slowly smoothed out his thoughts and slipped off the floor to find Gu Xiuhan.

Ruan Yu obviously thought like a giant, but when he acted, he was not just a dwarf. Just by knocking on Gu Xiuhan’s door he had used up all his cheek, and when he pretended to be steady and lifted his feet towards Gu Xiuhan’s bed to have a long talk with him, his feet were so weak that he tripped over the slippers on the floor and fell on Gu Xiuhan’s lap with an ahhh.

Ruan Yu, “…”

Even the ears and collar bones were red.

For a moment, he was so embarrassed that he wanted to lie and say he was sleepwalking.

“What’s wrong?”

Suddenly there was a tightening of the ribs, Ruan Yu was caught by a pair of hands, picked up like a cat and placed on his lap to stabilize, and when he looked up, he was confronted with Gu Xiuhan’s deep, quiet black eyes and slightly furrowed brows, very close to him.

“Brother Xiuhan, I’m here to…”

Ruan Yu licked his lips nervously. The delicate exhalation became moist and fragrantly hot.

“I’ve come to confess my love to you.”

Gu Xiuhan’s breath sank and his eyes changed.

“But we need to negotiate first.” Ruan Yu couldn’t catch such a burning gaze, his face tilted away slightly, the little earlobe not covered by silver hair was red like a coral bead.

You have to promise me that in the future, if you have a request, you can say it, you can do anything you want, but only not too anxious and too excited, let me slowly get used to it, not to force it.

–This is the content of the negotiations.

But perhaps the nervousness overload led to intermittent stupidity attack, Ruan Yu was caught in Gu Xiuhan’s full oppressive gaze, from the belly full of carefully written draft… The most outrageous sentence was picked up by a panicked hand.

“Actually, you…” The pretty little mermaid sitting on top of him, innocent and shy, snow-white skin which was burnt to an erotically hot pink, but still plucked up enough courage to say in a thin trembling voice, “You can do whatever you want to me.”

…

…

What kind of words are these? He knew that Ruan Yu probably did not mean that.

But Gu Xiuhan still clearly heard from the depths of his own mind, and was thrown into a violent buzz.

 

 

 

 

 

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