Chapter 58: I want you to love me
Translated by Addis of Exiled Rebels Scanlations
Editor: Karai
Zhou Pingbo, a single alpha who had been in love with the lab for years, had no interest in getting into Heinrich and Lin Xu’s bed, and after a series of examinations, he blew Heinrich off, handing him an educational manual on Imperial physiology.
Heinrich spent his childhood and teenage years drifting through the universe, he never received the standard Imperial schooling, in the piloting mecha, command of combat skills, but missing a lot of basic common sense, such as now looking through the manual, he realized that in the Silver Fortress, the red and blue hearts he saw on the medicine bottle in Lin Xu’s hand were the pregnancy symbol.
The handbook was detailed and even covered how to take care of your omega or beta after a miscarriage or normal delivery – taking proper medication, supplementing, relaxing mentally, and avoiding strong physical labor.
When Zhou Pingbo secretly presented Dr. Hassan with a new secret medication pickup list, Hassan sighed and lamented that Dr. Lin’s baby hadn’t been born, and personally found a lot of information about beta male fertility, compiled it into notes, and carefully sent it to Lin Xu.
Lin Xu woke up a day later, but he couldn’t stand the fact that Heinrich was taking care of him like a piece of porcelain that would break at the first touch, so he sent him straight to work. Probably because he had used up so much energy and strength during his slumber, Lin Xu’s appetite had recently increased.
His appetite was not small before he had the pregnancy regurgitation, and now that everything had returned to normal, he was like a brown bear that had just woken up from hibernation, running to Ninth Canteen day after day. Today, he tried the whole roasted dream cow.
Dream cows were creatures from a blue planet in the Proxima Galaxy, they loved to live in pure water and spent most of their lives dreaming, relying on photosynthesis to transform stellar energy. Humans and other intelligent races would use this amazing creature as an experiment to study dreams and consciousness.
At the same time, dream cows lead a carefree life and demanded the highest environmental standards, so the meat was tender and juicy, without any fishy taste. Once discovered, they were seen by humans who had a stubborn pursuit of food, and humans have since become the largest importer of dream cows in the interstellar. The extraterrestrials who manage and raise dream cattle encountered this kind of stupid and rich race for the first time and were surprised.
After searing, the dream cow meat was charred on the outside and tender on the inside, with the crispy charred skin locking in the sweet fat of the meat, which was mouth-watering without special seasoning.
But imported from the far-flung Proxima Galaxy, Dream Cow has always been expensive. Lin Xu saw a visible drop in points on Heinrich’s massive points account when he placed an order for a whole sizzling dream cow.
The dream cow was the size of a lamb, and after searing it, the intelligent robot helped him finish breaking the bones and slicing it in advance, then poured a glass of chilled blue fruit wine to accompany the meal.
The melt-in-your-mouth roasted dream cow and the sweet and sour sparkling blue fruit wine together soothed tired taste buds. Lin Xu suddenly felt that human exploration of the interstellar was not a bad thing, at least the recipes at hand were incredibly rich.
At the apocalypse base, even if he was one of the top chiefs, he couldn’t afford to splurge on a whole roasted lamb for one meal.
Like a dog that smells a bone, Ryan followed the scent, “Professor Lin, you ordered the roasted dream cow! Eh, are you expecting someone?”
Lin Xu looked at Ryan, “No, it’s just me.”
“Just one person? The Marshal is not coming?”
Lin Xu raised his eyebrows, “He’s not coming. But now with you, there are two of us. Sit.”
Ryan sat down hesitantly and excitedly as Lin Xu asked the intelligent robot to add another set of cutlery. It was not that Ryan thought Lin Xu had to eat with Heinrich, it’s just, it’s just… He didn’t think Lin Xu would be able to eat a whole roasted dream cow! But once the Dream Cow was in his mouth, he forgot all about it and continued to feast on it.
It wasn’t until Ryan’s stomach was a little full and he felt a little rude for keeping his head buried in a big meal that he looked up, only to find that the plate in front of Lin Xu was basically empty, and he had finished three times as much roast meat as Ryan by himself.
But Lin Xu’s chewing and drinking movements seemed so unhurried and moderate that it was hard to believe he could pack so much into his stomach so quickly.
“Something wrong?” Lin Xu saw Ryan trying to speak.
“Nothing important.” Ryan replied, “Professor Lin, are you all better? I couldn’t contact you during this time, Captain Arnold told me that you are sick, not in good spirits, and have been sleeping. The fleet is close to reaching Earth, and I was worried that you might not be able to participate in the landing expedition if your health stays bad.”
“I’m fine.” Lin Xu opened his mouth, but the hand holding the knife and fork paused. In fact, there were still some small worries bothering him, but it was not considered a disease, and there was no need to say it to make others worry.
“That’s good.” Ryan nodded, always looking well behaved in front of Lin Xu, “Professor Lin, I finished translating all the assignments you assigned. Before you were sick, Captain Arnold asked me not to disturb your recuperation and never sent it to you.”
Lin Xu pondered for a while, remembering that he did give Ryan translation assignments before, and he only checked a few of them, “Send them to my email, I will finish reading them as soon as possible.”
Ryan nodded, Lin Xu finished the last few pieces of roasted dream cow on the table and found that Ryan was still secretly watching him, “What else do you want to ask?”
“Lin, Professor Lin…” Ryan probes, “What’s your relationship with Marshal Chu now? What kind of relationship is it?”
From the moment Lin Xu and Heinrich boarded the ship together in S105, the officers and enlisted men on the Victoria had been speculating about the relationship between the two, and the previous kiss between the two in full view of the bridge confirmed it.
But after that kiss, Lin Xu did not appear in front of people for a long time, and they did not dare to ask Heinrich in person, and Heinrich after that day there was always a deep depression and a deeper coldness between his eyebrows, unlike a person who fell in love. Again, they were not sure about the attitude of the two parties involved. Ryan thought, if that damn Heinrich Chu took Professor Lin’s sincerity as a joke, he would take Professor Lin back to the Elam Fleet!
“Us?” Lin Xu put his knife and fork down and set his plate and goblet, looking slightly pale, but gently illuminated by the bright light of the galactic depths outside the porthole, and then mildly like a clear vision.
“I want him to love me. And he… is very good at saying no.”
He smiled faintly, his long, sharp eyebrows vivid.
Ryan, “?”
Professor Lin, are you sure we know the same Marshal Chu? Are you really talking about Heinrich Chu, the cold, hard, arrogant and uninviting sword of the Empire?
Lin Xu’s eyes were half-lidded as he swept his gaze over the outer wall of the sleek, crystalline goblet. The light fell in long arcs on the wall of the goblet, and a figure with broad shoulders and a straight back was reflected in the white light from a distance, silent and clenching his fingers.
Lin Xu stared at the familiar reflection on the wall of the glass, licked his lips, sat up straight. He raised his hand to tie up his long black hair, and his pale, delicate neck was covered by the galactic light, showing a thin but attractive curve.
He was an ancient Earth human, not differentiated from the ABO gender, and would not have glands, but this did not prevent the alpha bound by physical nature to be fascinated with this part. Perhaps it cannot be referred to as alpha nature.
Ryan, who was also a virile alpha, was at the moment respecting his teacher and innocently tinkering with his translation homework, picking out a few grammar and words that he didn’t understand and asking Lin Xu for advice.
The familiar sound of boots hitting the ground was approaching, and Lin Xu withdrew his gaze from the wall of the glass, answering Ryan’s questions as if he were the best teacher in the world right now.
“Lin Xu,” Heinrich stopped at the side of the table, and Ryan immediately rose to his feet and saluted. Lin Xu’s voice stopped and he looked up at Heinrich, his untied hair falling beside his face sliding softly behind his ears, his round, slightly cool earlobes gently concealed, as if with a soft light.
“Marshal Chu,” Lin Xu opened his lips, and the sound between his lips and teeth was like snow melting away, flowing through a valley filled with pebbles and pine branches, scraping across Heinrich’s eardrums.
Heinrich’s throat rolled, his golden pupils stared at Lin Xu with a strange ripple, his lips no longer pursed for indifference, but for restraint. His gaze slid over the side of Lin Xu’s neck, the veins pulsing beneath the skin in a trance of heat and sweet fragrance.
Whenever Lin Xu called him Marshal Chu, it was destined that Heinrich’s neatly groomed and serious black uniform would not last more than a quarter of an hour before it was scratched into a mess by the mermaid, whose eyes would show satisfaction and fascination as he grabbed Heinrich’s hand and pulled him closer.
Lin Xu remembered it all, he understood it all, whether it was Heinrich’s reflexive shudder and heavy breathing when he heard him call out for Marshal Chu, or how far away Heinrich’s keen hearing could hear his whispered murmurs. He was very aware that Heinrich could hear his conversation with Ryan and see his every move as he stood in the doorway of the cafeteria.
I want you to love me. It was not an expectation, a wish, or a request, nor was the half-sentence “Heinrich is good at saying no” what Lin Xu really wanted, but a skillful and subtle use of words to move the heart.
I want you to love me. I don’t know what you’re afraid of, but you have no way back.
“Finished for the day?” Lin Xu motioned for Heinrich to sit at his side.
“The meeting is over, for now.”
He heard Lin Xu’s confession from a distance, but it was completely unethical eavesdropping. Heinrich didn’t dare to respond to Lin Xu’s words immediately, only to pretend that everything was normal.
After Heinrich sat down, Lin Xu asked the intelligent robot to take away the used cutlery and called up the light screen to order for Heinrich, asking his opinion every now and then.
Heinrich let Lin Xu make the arrangements and continued, “The fleet will enter the Oort Nebula and in three days will enter the Kuiper asteroid belt. There may be some small objects that cross the force field and hit the starship, but they will not cause excessive damage to the ship, so don’t be nervous if you encounter bumps.”
“Okay.” Lin Xu chose a new dish, “I remember that the comets that crossed the skies of ancient Earth came out of the Oort Nebula and Kuiper Belt, and close to the Sun, ancient humans on Earth were able to observe the bright comet tails.”
“I know this! A comet striking the moon is an ominous sign.” Ryan said excitedly.
“… Yes.” Lin Xu, who was interrupted in his conversational thoughts, could do nothing about it.
Heinrich looked at Lin Xu, “You can see a comet shower in the Long Whale Region, hundreds of comets dragging their light across the stars, it’s beautiful. Do you like it? When we return, we can go see it together.”
Lin Xu froze for a moment, but Ryan’s earlier interruption had pulled him out of his intense concentration, and the cold, rising sensation in his chest caused Lin Xu to panic for a moment. He didn’t even quite hear Heinrich’s words. Instead of an answer, Heinrich saw Lin Xu’s face change slightly.
The aroma of the food rose up, and the blue fruit wine Lin Xu had opened earlier was taken out of the ice bucket and poured into the glass in front of Heinrich. Lin Xu suddenly got up, “Sorry, I thought of something I haven’t dealt with, I’ll leave first, enjoy your meal.”
Heinrich didn’t stop Lin Xu’s hurried departure, and could only watch Lin Xu’s back as he first walked quickly out of the dining room, and then jogged up, and began to doubt himself.
“Did I say something wrong… He doesn’t like the Long Whale Region?”
Ryan, who was questioned, was also puzzled, and Marshal Chu looked so sincere that he dared not give a casual answer.
“Maybe, maybe… Your offer is too permanent and Professor Lin would be, uh, shy?”
Shy? Heinrich could hardly imagine Lin Xu being shy.
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Heinrich was right to think that shyness would not be on Lin Xu’s mind. But he couldn’t escape the toe-curling embarrassment. The liquid became cold on his body, sticking to the only layer of his uniform, and his chest remained flat, yet strangely sore and swollen.
As soon as Lin Xu ran back to his room, he rushed into the bathroom, took off the part of his uniform that had been soaked on his chest, and when he wiped his hands, it was the liquid that had been cooled by the wind.
A quick clean didn’t wash away his psychological concerns, so Lin Xu turned on the shower and poured boiling water over his head, rinsing away everything and landing next to his feet in water so light it was blue and translucent white.
He does not understand, mermaids were already oviparous, why is there a need to nurse a baby?
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Professor Lin trolling people before half and the middle way collapse …?
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