Postscripts
New Version
Finally finished editing.
Having finally completed such an important task after such a long time, I shouldāve screamed my message across three times with one exclamation mark after each word. Still, I said it this plainly.
The first version had 520k words in its main story, and the edited version 570k. To me, it was a huge undertaking. Both the writing and the editing took a couple of months. I canāt say which one was harder or which one I struggled with more, but with both there was bliss amidst the pain.
During the serialization, because of realityās pressure on top of the rush in one update per day, I had to hurry across many places I originally wanted to expand upon. There were also many details and problems with logic I didnāt have time to go through. Now, Iāve finally written to my contentment, having added the plot and rivalry scene I wanted. For example: the uncontrollable kiss that happened at the hunt competition in WWXās past life was one I skipped because during the serialization I didnāt have the energy to slowly think through how such a large-scale competition/recruitment fair would work; the path of how NMJ and JGY turned from friends to enemies; LWJ following WWX to Burial Mound and the battle of the blood corpses at Burial Mound in WWXās present life were ones I skipped because I didnāt have the patience to write fight scenes; acknowledging SiZhuiās background was simply one I forgotā¦
The areas where I got lazy were filled up one by one during the editing process. In summary, the new version that came the edits is in my heart closer to this storyās original form. In other words, to me, this one right now is the āoriginalā MDZS.
I know too many people have read the old version and that some impressions were too deeply rooted for all of its effects to be removed without difficulty, as well as that thereād definitely be many voices of doubt. But Iāve heard my fair share of voices of doubt back when MDZS was serializing. They were there the whole way. I know there are lots of things that canāt satisfy everyone, so I chose to satisfy myself. When I look back at this story, at least Iāve written everything I wanted to write, and there wouldnāt be too many regrets.
Apparently when writing summaries and postscripts one has to reminisce the past times, so Iāll be reminiscing a bit as well. When I started to work out the outline of this story was the last year of university. Every night over at the field, Iād take a stroll listening to music, worrying about the goddamn graduation thesis as I uncontrollably made things up in my head.
What first drove me to write such a story seemed to be a blurry scene that appeared in my head: in a forest surrounded by rain and darkness, a person in black with a pale complexion and blood on his face snapped in half something in his hand, his expression cold. It was either a flute or an arrow.
I donāt remember how this scene appeared either. There was no logic to support it. I neither knew whom the person was nor why he had such an expression on his face, but I was indeed touched by an inexplicable feeling. And then I suddenly grew interested. I began to think what kind of person heād be, what kind of journeys he wouldāve come through, trying hard to create detailed, logically-complete plots for him, transform everything into words, and then attempt to touch others.
First there was an emotion, then a character, and at last a story. In the process of transformation, expression, and conveyance, the energy would naturally be shifted and lost. But with my current self, Iāve tried my best.
Anyways, there are many things Iād need to fumble and learn.
Thinking and writing about scenes with chemistry or conflict (also known as flirting and fighting) were beyond wonderful experiences. The former were like smuggling Emperorās Smile, copying scriptures sitting across each other when they were young, Caiyi Town (yes I adore every single scene from when they were students), getting all touchy-bitey in the Xuanwu cave, as well as scenes of Forceful President HanGuang-Jun and His Mad Yet Passionate Runaway Wife (???), and so on. The latter were like Madam Yu against Wang LingJiao, Yi Cityās candidates doing the you-stab-me-and-I-stab-him, Jiang Cheng attacking WangXian at the ancestral hall in Lotus Pier for being shameless gays (hey!), and so onā¦
All these were the biggest joys the MDZS story has brought me. Theyāre joys no other thing could ever compare to.
To me, MDZS was definitely an especially important story. At first, I had no idea that so many people would come across this story. Because of it, I experienced many unthinkable things and got to know many great people. It was a rollercoaster of emotions both inside and outside the story. There was a time when I seemed like I came right out of an asylum. Because it was an experimental work, it had too many immature sections. In some places, no matter how hard I try to change things, the framework was already set and it was very difficult for me to edit it until I was completely satisfied. But looking back on it now, it was another footprint of my growth.
But I really donāt want to write or edit it again. Not only does it not correspond with how online novels are read, it also brings me a second round of torture⦠So from now on, Iāll complete the draft and publish it after all edits.
During the first period of serialization when I tried to get used to things, I wrote with quite a lot of choppiness and caution, but the more I wrote, the deeper connections I felt with the characters of the story. While serializing and editing I felt tired to death, wondering why havenāt I finished yet, but after I really finished, typing the Enter key a couple of times at the end of the Word document and writing āThe Endā, I instead felt rather unwilling to part.
Even though I knew it was only the end of the main story and thereād be extras to come, I still didnāt want to part with it.
The day the main story was completed, in feigned culture, I originally decided to end with a line from a poem. The line was āthe melody ceases and none is to be seen; the river streams beneath columns of mountains greenā*. But in the end, I never ended up using it, probably because even though the poem was beautiful, sophisticated, and very meaningful, it wasnāt the ending I hoped for. It was too lonely, too melancholy.
*TN: Translated with reference to unknown translation āThe song is ended, no one is to be seen. On the river the mountain peaks are so blue!ā from dict.cn.
And what I hoped for was āon and on the WangXian melody drifts; the song ceases yet the figures persistā.
The clamour will take its exit, while you and I will persist.
āMo Xiang Tong Xiu 2016.08.12
Old Version
Finally finished writingā¦
This is my second long series as well as my second original danmei. During the serialization process, there have been many ups and downs. After the last chapter, I do feel a sense of being freed from suffering, but when I saw the page that recorded my outline finally be blank after deleting it bit by bit, I also feel somewhat unwilling to part with it.
After I finished Scum Villain, Iād been mulling over this story for half a year. This is the first time I challenged a story with a greater number of characters and more complex relationships. I spent a long time writing the outline, always feeling unsatisfied with it and changing things here and there. In the end, I really couldn’t drag things on anymore, and grit my teeth and published it. The first few chapters were fairly rushed, and my drafts were intermittent as well. The longest draft was the part where they killed that turtle, with seven thousand words. The rest were mainly raw updates without any drafts. It was all thanks to Mr. Outline that I could keep up with daily updates for a while. But after all, the outline wasnāt detailed enough. There were still times when I felt so stuck I could ram my head and hands into the wall.
Nice details and interactions need to be perfected by time and energy, and time and energy were exactly what frequent updates lacked. During the serialization, it wasnāt that I couldn’t see the many problems, but rather that I knew, yet I couldn’t pay attention to them and could only force my way forward. And so⦠after a period of rest, Iāll make heavy edits on the entire story, enriching the details, adding plot elements, changing places that didnāt logically make sense, editing sentences. At around May or June, Iāll replace the old version on JJWXC altogether. If any readers would like to come back and revisit it, theyād probably find many Easter eggs in the edited version XD.
The following includes some of my thoughts during the writing process.
First, on the fantasy setting:
One good thing about fantasy stories is that you donāt have to be too historically correct and you can make changes to certain customs however you want. The conventions in this story are mainly from the Wei, Jin, Southern and Northern Dynasties as well as the Tang Dynasty. Chairs were rare. To āsitā usually means to sit on oneās knees. The ceremonial clothes were mostly the Tang cap and the round-collar robe. However, chilli peppers and apples appeared even though they only happened in the Ming Dynasty. The hip-and-gable roof on the buildings were named in the Qing Dynasty. The vocabulary and poem allusions were even more examples of time-travelling. And the age at which one was given a courtesy name was lowered to fifteen. Anyhow, the author pretty much massaged together all of the Ancient China elements she liked and brewed them in a pot. Thereās no accuracy at all. So whatever. Just read about the characters and the story.
But thereās just one thing. People from the past really did call their mothers āMomā.
Second, on character:
Both WWX and LWJ are highly ideal characters, so there wouldnāt be too much dispute on their moral standing. Theyāre perfect as the protagonists. Of course, I do like WWX a lot, but if Iām looking for a boyfriend, sorry, Iāll only have LWJ please.
All of their character elements were created in binary opposition. The bold and the principled, the concealed yearning and the flaunting coquetry, the red rose and the white rose, the cold, dignified one and the devilish, untamed one⦠The more different they were, the better. Still, their core was the same. Which usually means their outlook on life is the same? In any case, this isnāt the point. The point is that I love the chemistry between them!
The characters Xiao XingChen and Xue Yang are pretty much old friends of mine. In high school, every evening self-studying session* Iād pay no attention to studying, sneakily writing things down on a notebook. That was when I settled on their names and overall personalities. But back then, there wasnāt a full plot or any context. There were only a few fragments of their interactions, some of which I directly put into the story, such as drawing sticks to determine who to purchase the vegetables. To have characters and pieces of dialogue that previously only existed in my head be seen by everyone and discussed so fervently is a curious feeling indeed.
*TN: In China, a day in class may last for quite a long time. Apart from class, there are also morning and evening self-studying sessions where you have to remain at school. The evening ones can last until nine or ten.
When writing paragraphs about Xue Yang, I had to adjust my mentality to be in the darkest, cruellest state, while it was the exact opposite for Xiao XingChen, from whom I felt holy light every time I wrote about him. Switching between the angel and the devil brought quite some satisfaction. But ever since XY officially walked onstage, the comments section suddenly exploded. Heās indeed the owner of Jiangzai*.
TN: Jiangzai, XYās sword, means to release catastrophe.
There was only one key word in A-Qingās original character setting: ābouncyā. Apart from this, there was almost nothing. I only came up with her name they day before she appeared. After the details were fleshed out, I sometimes even feel that sheās kind of cute. But writing about her really felt so noisy⦠almost as if there was really a girl chirping around in a high pitch.
Before I finished coming up with anything else about Wen Ning, what I first decided on was, āHe has to die!ā āIām going to make him die!ā The original plan was to make him turn into ash on the boat leaving Lotus Pier, but when I wrote up to that point, I turned around and found that there wasnāt enough foreshadowing. And there wasnāt a reason he had to die, was there? Killing him off would be very abrupt, almost as if I was angsting for the sake of angst. So even though I really wanted him to die, I could do nothing but give up. It was the same with our little princess Jin Ling. He was also supposed to die. In order to defeat the big villain, he turned himself into a fierce corpse to replace Wen Ning. But since Wen Ning didnāt die, he wouldnāt have to replace him either.
Everyone should know what Jiang Chengās keyword is without me saying it. In the beginning, I thought with with XYās existence, Jiang Chengās negative energy would definitely seem skimpy. Who knew he became the ultimate superstar of the comment section? Compared to him, XY was almost a poor, has-been idol. Only now and then would someone decide to drag him out again. Of course, in the end, under the combined PDA attacks of WWX and LWJ, the past and present superstars were obliterated.
LXC. I have no idea why some readers think heās someone who āhides his wit deep inside. In truth⦠Iāve never shown any traits of his that could be interpreted this way. To be able to see through his brotherās little thoughts doesnāt mean itās the same with others, and to become sect leader didnāt require deep thoughts and acute perception. Perhaps it was only because he had a high birth, nice personality and excellent performance⦠Maybe it was because I accidentally made him too favourable in the beginning that in the end everyone was like āWTF youāre actually just sweet, pure, and oblivious?!ā I feel so bad for him with how much fans he lost on his way. Pat pat, LXC.
JGY. Fine. Sometimes I do feel a bit bad for you but sorry please return to your glorious state of death.
NHS. Ugh⦠I really feel sorry for him. I deleted so much of his part and I even got rid of a good partner for him⦠Let me see if I could fix things up in the edited version⦠Anyways, NHS, Iām sorry.
Those who caused the most debate were mostly round characters, and so there is of course flat characters to foil them, like Wen Chao, JiaoJiao, and the people who only follow the herd. Flat characters actually have an important responsibility. Their standpoint is clear. Everyone could curse at them to let off some steam unlike the former, whom some hated and some loved, creating endless dispute. And thus, this was the type of character that SQH* likes to write about. If all of the characters in a book are complex and round, I donāt know if the readers would feel tired. Anyways, with my current abilities, itād definitely tire me out when writing themā¦Ā
TN: Here the author refers to Shang QingHua, one of the characters in her previous novel The Scum Villainās Self-Saving System who is an author himself. His pen name has been translated differently by different translators and the punās kind of hard to deal with, but just generally it means āfapping towards the skyā. Yep. For more on Scum Villain check out BC Novels at http://bcnovels.com/the-scum-villains-self-saving-system/.
Third, on practice:
Iāve said in the āAuthorās Notesā* of the first few chapters that this is a work of self-fulfilment written to improve my abilities.
*TN: Most of these havenāt been translated because they either only pertain to the drama of the Chinese fandom (false plagiarism accusations, problems with copyright, attempts to regulate the actions of toxic fans, etc.) or just simple comments that donāt matter all that much. Youāre not missing out on anything, trust me.
When I was stuck at the outline, Iāve already anticipated many negative comments that Iād soon receive, preparing myself for what was to come. For example: the main character is too forgiving; too much holding back and not enough lashing out; the flashbacks are just too annoying; why do the side characters get so many scenes; too easy to forget about what happened before after reading what happened next⦠A lot of these did indeed happen.
What I was most worried about was that she might not be good.
Scum Villain had the advantage of including popular elements, such as parody, tsukkomi*, and transmigrating into a novel. But, after all, parody and tsukkomi arenāt intrinsic things. So this story was an attempt to see if without these things, what I write would still be readable.
*TN: The Japanese term for a comedian in a double-act who plays the āstraight manā who berates and comments on the acts of the boke, or the āfunny manā. This has a Chinese alternative which is called tucao. The two are similar in many ways, and tucao humor is quite popular in net-novels.
During the practicing process, more and more questions were dug up.
Like Empathy. The goal of Empathy is simpleāto insert the stories of side characters. I was using it like a variation of the point-of-view switch, but the technique is so simple that itās almost a shortcut.
And also like the agonizingly long flashbacks that so many criticized. Itās not a favored writing method. Ever since the first section, readers have abandoned the story because of it. More and more happened as time went on, and the controversy got bigger and bigger as well, but I still followed the outline and insert three uber-long flashbacks.
When I was writing the outline, Iād also considered if I should disassemble the plot of WWXās past life and the pieces bit by bit inside the story. My conclusion was that if it were disassembled, the structure and timeline would be even messier and itād be even harder to read. The completeness of the plot would be destroyed, and the emotions wouldnāt flow smoothly either. Strictly speaking, this story consists of two parallel stories of the past and present lives, of two segments of life. A few minor memories could be fragmented, but the important phases and the transitional events couldn’t be summarized. And in the end, I still decided to use a method I thought could express things the best. When writing, on some things one should take suggestions, but on others itās best to persist. No matter if others think it was āthe bestā or āthe worstā, it was still my attempt.
There were also a few plot elements that I blurred over because I wasnāt in the best state, and a few characters didnāt end up as strong as they couldāve been⦠I hope I could fix all these things during the editing process.
Fourth, on gratitude:Ā
The perception of the author and the reader are often poles apart. Itās rather difficult for the author to predict what comments theyād receive after the story is published or whether or not itād be liked and acknowledged by the reader. The author might feel great, but the reader might not get it at all; a plot element on which the author spent tons of effort might not be received well in the eyes of the reader. Situations where the author scribbled around and the reader enthusiastically chased after it were very common.
I wrote this story with the determination that itād fail and thatād be alright. Inserting so many flashbacks into a net-novel was an absolute indicator that it was going to fail. On top of that, even though the hot element of rebirth was tagged, it unfortunately had none of the pleasure-points that most rebirth novels include. This was why ever since the first few chapters Iād been emphasizing over and over again that this would be different from the last book, worried that readers who liked Scum Villain might not find this one palatable. I wouldnāt want you to be disappointed after you come all the way here to support me.
But I never expected that even though the last book was completed more than a year ago, the readers on JJWXC are still as passionate as ever. Itās just like what I said. You really give me an utmost surprise every single time.
Thank you!
There are too many subjects, too many characters, and too many stories I want to write about. Thereās a whole pile in my notes, of which I donāt know which one to begin first. Iām currently still searching around, writing and learning at the same time. I hope every story is different, so I canāt guarantee every book I write the readers will love. I can only guarantee that Iāll pour my heart in every one of them. If you just so happen to find it decent, Iām happy to inform you that weāll be able to walk yet another path together :).
Short Note
But wait! Donāt leave yet! The main story is complete, but thereās a total of 14 extras, along with some other funsies like a few more authorās notes, an incomplete canon collection of the Lan Sectās rules, and, uh, anything else you want translated, I guess? Here are a few useful links that you might want to check out:
The Scum Villainās Self Saving System (BC Novels) (MXTX first book): http://bcnovels.com/the-scum-villains-self-saving-system/
Heaven Officialās Blessing (Sakhyulations) (MXTX third book):
https://www.sakhyulations.com/novel/heaven-officials-blessing/
Novel Updates thread for Grim Reapers Have No Days Off (MXTX fourth book, still unpublished):
https://forum.novelupdates.com/threads/grim-reapers-have-no-days-off.55904/Ā
Directory of GDC Novel Updates thread (just the most useful thing youāll ever come across):
https://forum.novelupdates.com/threads/the-founder-of-diabolism.32452/page-278#post-4290032
Cloud Recesses Translations (lots of cool tutorials, amazing translations of everything MXTX-related, fanart-repost heaven, and just generally a really nice group that deserves more appreciation):
https://twitter.com/YSFYC_CRTĀ
As a last note, I have to reiterate once more that the raws on JJWXC do cost money to read, which means translating the paid chapters and posting them here is theoretically not a great idea. However, it should also be acknowledged that we translation groups are gaining the franchise an audience it wouldnāt have been able to reach in the first place, doing no harm to the novelās profit and taking no profit for ourselves. Still, a few other translators I know are making it a requirement for readers to pay in order to access the paid chapters. While this wasnāt something I found necessary, I nonetheless urge you to contribute to the author on the JJWXC platform as a means of thanking her for such a wonderful story.Ā
There are two methods to do this. One is to simply buy all of the paid chapters from JJWXC. However, while this is usually an easy process, the problem with this right now is that the GDC novel page on JJWXC is locked and inaccessible due to an incident that happened a while ago. Another method is to āthrow bombsā, which is more like directly donating to the author. This can be done on MXTXās author page, so even while the novel is locked, readers can contribute here. A handy guide on how to register for a JJWXC account and how to purchase novel chapters can be found here (https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ikGyfFiI4SQe2NmrNsJ3sgV71Iv6e5tGqN9i8SZbuSA/edit). While thereās not yet a guide on how to throw bombs/other methods of supporting the author, by the end of the extras, Iāll either have made one myself or have bribed asked someone nicely to make one.
Cheers š
K.

I can’t express how much Your work means to me. You struggle with problematic readers, chapter steals and so on, yet all of You still provide us with small piece of happiness with each update. I hope You will get as much satisfaction as possible out of it, without any regrets. Thank you for Your hard work, Exiled Rebels! This is my beloved novel, both story and translation makes me gasp in awe. Unforgettable, thus even more precious C:
I second Lucilla’s comment x3
(ć„ ̄ ³ ̄)ć„ thank you so much for your hard work ill be waiting for the extras. Ganba!! (ļ¾*>ā<)ļ¾ā”
Thank you!!! š
Thank you so much for your hard work and translating it so well TT TT i got to know this novel and the author thanks to you and i really appreciate it thank you so much
Oh my god . Glad to know this web novel exist šā¤
you all guys have been working so hard to make this translations . Xie xie for you guyss ššš
ā¤U K-chan and crew š keep translating more incredible novels, ahš
The main story has ended, oh wow. It feels like yesterday I came to this website to read the first chapter of MDZS. Thank you so much to all of you behind this! Without any of you, we wouldnāt have been gifted an amazing sotry that we could read from. Its really sad once you realize that their story has finally ended, this book has filled me with so much joy, up to the point I would anticipate the following chapter/s week after week. You truly all have been blessings! (And i canāt wait for the extras!) ā¤š
Thank you so much for translating this beautiful story – I was introduced to it through you! Because I was unable to purchase the raws, I purchased both seasons of the audio drama (HIGHLY recommended, it’s so well done!!!) and the Thai version of the physical book as I really want to show my support for MXTX.
Is there english version of it?? Where can i buy? šš
Thank you so much for your hard work.. really appreciate.. Iāll waiting for the extra chapters..
Thank you very much MXTX for having created such a wonderful novel. I like the way you interacted with the present and the past. The flashbacks help a lot to understand and appreciate the novel. Wonderful imagination. A gift.
It was my 1st Chinese novel and I am very impress by the plot, the characters, and at the end how you were able to link everything and everyone together, the overall storyā¦Sometimes I laughed and other times I almost cried. Rollercoaster of emotions, all in same book. I really enjoyed reading it. It was a real pleasure to read GDC and a bit sad to have it finished. I would like to hug you to thank you. I donāt have enough words to express my feelings.
Thank you for letting Wen Ning and Jin Ling live. We love them. Thank you for giving birth to Wei Ying and Lan Zhan. We, the readers, are lucky to have known them as well as the other characters. Thank you for having done and editing GDC as you did.
K and Exiled Rebels Scanlations team, thank you for having had the patience to translate this novel and have it discovered all around the world. Without your professional work, and your love for GDC, this novel would have been unknown unfortunately to a lot of people.
Thank you for your time. I am sending you lot of kisses and hugs.
BTW, the link is only in Chinese. How can I give a donation to you (ERS) and the author? For sure, I would like to buy the chapters and the book itself.It is my favorite novel.
Thanks again,ļļļļ
Thank you so much for everyone involved in translating this novel!
Thank you so much. I’m truly grateful from my heart~ ā¤
Thank you very much for your hard work !
thank you so much for your hardwork. realy appeciate it. now I’m waiting for the season 2 of the donghua and your extra’s translation. xiexie ni men
I can’t express my gratitude to you…. To translate such a gem of literature….This is one of my favorite novels: the journey, the characters (ok, i admit i love Lan Zhan to death….:-)), the plot, the world. I wish there could be a second novel full of cases just to solve by these lovely two. But I am looking forward to all these little extras and now i am reading the comic, listen to the audiodrama and waiting for the second part of the donghua…what an epic tale. Thanks to you i can enjoy this! It makes me want to translate the novel into german so bad even i am not a professional translator….Anyway, despite all the conflicts you have been through, you did this until the end and i just wanted to let you know that i will be forever thankful!! Let’s go on a nighthunt some time again:-)! WangXian will always have a place in my heart.
I have always loved books and novels and Iāve read my fair share. MDZS was my first one like this (translated from Chinese, BL content). In the meantime I have started reading others, but MDZS will always be my absolute favourite. Not just in this specific category, but in general. It was so well written (and translated!!), incredibly interesting, scary, dramatic, adventurous and mysterious, with character development and tragedies, betrayal and reconciliation. I canāt part with it and am so glad you guys put in the extra work to translate the extras. Either way, I just know I will re read it anyways. Thank you a thousand times for having made my weeks less bleak in the past year, I always jumped at the news whenever you finished a new chapter. The characters grew so close to my heart, I wish I could forget them just to fall in love with them once more. ā¤ļø
Thank you so so so much for all your hard work while translating this novel! šš¤§
Thanks for the shoutout, K, and congrats on finishing this monster! Looking forward to your new project! ā¤
Thank you so so so much for translating and everything!š¤§
Ahhhh all the hard work from you is not enuf to be paid by money since your free time are mostly used for thisš¤
But thank you so much for translating this novel.. without you.. i dont think i myself is able to find such a wonderful novelšš
Be sure to take care of yourself everyone!
I dont even know what else am i suppose to say..
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RE: Fantasy Setting ā they mentioned the chilis and apples but iām surprised they didnāt mention the potatoes that Wei Wuxian and the Wenās planted on burial mound. Potatoes didnāt come to China till the end of the Ming Dynasty and werenāt really eaten by non-colonials until the Qianlong where they were a rare delicacy. Widespread cultivation on mass scale didnāt get off the ground until the 1960-70s.
I love and appreciate your translations so much! However, has the author ever mentioned if they will have an official English translated version of their novel? Thank you and much love!!!!
I love this novel so much! I’m sad that it’s pretty much over now but can’t wait for the extras. ^.^ Thank you so much for releasing this title and sharing where to find her other works!!!! <3<3<3
I had a question for the translators. Do you have an idea of what you'll be picking up next? If not, would it be possible to pick up Feng Yu Jiu Tian after Vol.4 or just start from the beginning? I'm sure you get asked this a lot so if its bothersome just disregard the suggestion. ^^;
Again though I love all the work you have done and can't wait for more awesome stuff!
That would be a super idea, i loved reading that novel and was very sad when from vol3 i could only find really bad, almost unreadable translations and summaries.
Thank you so much for all the hard work you put into translating! <3 I'm so happy to have the opportunity to read the novel. Can't wait for the extras! š
This is such an amazing story! Thank you so much for translating and sharing with us! ā„ā„ā„
thank you for making it possible to read mdzs! your wonderful translation has brought me a lot of joy (and tears! i definitely cried a few times) i couldn’t have experienced otherwiseššš