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Chapter 10

The empty hole in my heart became bigger, but it was no longer. I found another girlfriend. In the third year of college I met all the songs and dances in the classroom. When I turned, I will sing a song of “I like you”. At the end of the song, I suddenly felt it was very difficult to control my emotions and to end up quickly. Then I sat down and buried my head in my arms and I did not consider it. No one had noticed, only one girl looked at me calmly. She was my last fianc2ee at the college. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.

Then she told me that the class came with her carefully, her instinct said that I sing this song, thanks to the history of past love. She also said that at that time I judged by my expression that I really needed to love this person. At last she said a little happily this girl. I heard they were hard to find worries, but he said nothing. I could not really see what she thought, if she knew the truth.

I could read the letter I wrote, so I could not stay with him. When I knew what she did, I started to collapse calmly. I felt she was very wrong. I thought there was no mystery. The content only greeted good friends. She stupidly asked me why I did not show them. I am too lazy to say something, all that I knew was what we finished. She really liked me, she really really liked me.

I graduated from college and made a decent job. But I could not go home, so I had to live with other people and it was always very uncomfortable.

I have struggled constantly to get the chance to go abroad. Undecciously left this place, I tried to go to places where no one knew I would start a new life. Since I knew I could not get out of a relationship that ended with collapse, I had not yet found another fianc2ee. I realized that I would not finish with it, my only chance was to leave.

Sometimes I also think he knew better people than Li ZhenYun and they have a better personality. He was a lonely person. First of all, I would be in a very difficult situation, if I wanted to mention a few points on why I like him. Preferably, until I can see indiscriminate phrases, “What I want is only that spirit”.

I laughed and seized deep pain, I felt that such a thing was really mysterious. Some people have something unforgettable in other lives, and absolutely all will do everything.

Maybe it was a destiny. That was determined.

When I saw a book of traditional opera, it was my companion sitting beside her. I accidentally saw the phrase saying “love has already begun, it will never end”. I always hate poetic poetry. If my Chinese study was not done, it was not good for me, but this phrase came long-term. My depression did not last long.

I was poisoned with toxins called “he” and I realized it could be just an antidote. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.[/hide]

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Chapter 10

The empty hole in my heart became bigger and bigger but there was no way of mending it. I found another girlfriend. On a class get together in my third year of university, everyone was singing and dancing. When it was my turn to perform I sang the song “I Just Happen To Like You”. Towards the end of the song, I suddenly found it very hard to control my emotions and hastily finished. I then sat back down, buried my head in my hands and wouldn’t look up. No one noticed, only a single girl silently looked at me. She was my last girlfriend in university.

Later she carefully said that on the class get together, her instincts told her that I sang that song because of a past love story. She also said that judging from my expression at the time, I must have loved that person very deeply. She ended with lightly expressing how happy that girl must be. I heard her hard to detect feelings of jealousy but I had nothing to say. I really didn’t know what she would think if she knew the truth.

In the end we couldn’t stay together because she secretly read those letters I wrote. After I knew what she did I coldly initiated the breakup. She felt very wronged, she thought there weren’t any secrets in there and the contents were nothing but greetings to a good friend. She even naively asked me why I didn’t deliver them. I was too lazy to say anything, all I knew was that we were over. She actually really loved me, she really, really loved me.

I graduated from university and found a decent job. However, because I couldn’t get distributed a house, I had to live together with a few other people, it was always very uncomfortable.

I constantly fought for an opportunity to go overseas, my subconscious wanted to leave this place filled with grief and go to a place where no one knew me to start a new life. I didn’t find another girlfriend again because I knew I couldn’t escape from the relationship ending in break up. I also understood that I wouldn’t have an ending with him, my only option was to leave.

Sometimes I also thought, who knew how many people out there look way better than Li ZhenYun and have a better personality than him. He was a solitary person. In the end, if one wanted me to list a few points of why I like him then I would be in a very difficult situation. That was until I saw a rather baffling sentence: ‘This is just the taste I want.’

I began to laugh and followed with a deep sigh, I felt just that things like feelings were truly mysterious. Some people will be unforgettable in another person’s life and they will do absolutely anything for them.

Perhaps this was fate. It was predestined.

One time I randomly came across a book on traditional opera, it was left behind by my colleague who sat in the adjacent seat to mine. I casually flipped through it and saw a sentence that said ‘Love once begun, will never end.’  I always hated pedantic poems, I wasn’t good in my Chinese studies either, yet this sentence made me go into a daze for ages. My melancholy didn’t cease for a long time.

I understood, I was poisoned by a toxin known as ‘him’ and only he could be the antidote.[/hide]