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Chapter 11
I had the opportunity to go to the United States before I left. I wanted to meet him again, whatever he was. I did not know if I came back or how long it would take before I did it. When that day arrived, I did not even know, or when I removed my presence in this constant. I think it’s very hard to see him again. I went to some problems and learned from someone else that he was actually working in a nearby city. It lasted only 2 hours. My spirit when I sit in a car. Why am I always so close? This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.
I finally saw her again.
The fusion was not so unpleasant, because I thought the words we had swapped were ambiguous and inevitable. I still believe it was so many years, because my enemies grew up, I think it was over time. Of course, it could not forget, or maybe he’s already getting closer to me that I’ve probably been getting fast in your life, or a traveler was appointed just because he did not look. In any case, when we were private, he could not say something strange. He was very indifferent and looked slightly tight. Our relationship was a very common person between the two students who did not see each other for a long time.
I saw that day around his house, I could say he had lived the same, it was as beautiful and as smooth as he was. I asked him about the difficulty of receiving a visa. They were all pale words. He listened quietly, he did not care for that, but he did not concentrate. When I graduated, he asked: “Are you going back to the future?
I was shocking the heat of my heart, instead I accused me: “It’s more than 50% of probability that I will not return, I have finally left behind the great difficulties that it is again It will be boring and it will also be boring. It’s also why I saw you and I came back to you again, Fortunately, you were close to me. Everything I would like to meet with my old friend. “He saw something neteicēja, his head slightly pakājusi. I saw his hair to the eyebrows, but looked very nodded, a moment ago Asked: “Do you have a girlfriend?” I’m fast.
First he was silent, but he still answered: “No, I did not receive it.
I did not know what I had to win later, it would be embarrassing, if a few things discussed too deeply.
My expression was very calm, but it was a storm in it. I saw a little smile on my face and I suddenly felt sad. He was thinking about him all night, I did not know how many unhealthy nights I had in those years, only he knew my cruelty. He did not know many times that I lost my desire to eat and drink many times. I had a big fever and when I talked about my dreams, his name was all I said. Everybody explained me. I was thick and thin to find my phone number, but it stopped behind the refrigerator. In conclusion, I lived with him for many years.
Sometimes I also think that if I see it again, I’ll give them all. I knew he had despised me, despised me, but at least he knows that someone in your life loves him so deeply. But at this moment he sat before me. I resigned again. I did not have much courage, I would not know this secret. There is nothing that I mean even though I died. Even if I die, I will not give any soul.
He kept me silent. His expression was very complex, like depression. I did not have courage to say it loudly, I think that it will end up at any time, then I will abandon it in the past and will no longer worry.
As soon as I went, he suddenly silently called his name and said: “Can I ask you a question?”
When I tried to stay calm, my heart suddenly blushed, with a high speed and loud voice as if he was sorry for the question. . But he just said that I could not listen to him and go back and choose it. As he said to me, I knew very well the following day: “Before you threw away the clothes for a long time, Zai Ao Ri, why did you know that it was located? Did not you wash it before coming back?” speech finished, almost the breath stopped. At the same time I thought the sky would fall.
Such a simple phrase clearly explained the result clearly, but we could not understand what other people think. My nature hid me and I recovered it again. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.[/hide]
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Chapter 11
I got the opportunity to go to America, before I left I wanted to go see him one more time no matter what. I didn’t know if I was going to come back, or how long it would be before I did. Nor did I know when that day would arrive or if by then, time would have already erased my existence in this never changing city. Overall, I predicted that it would be very difficult for me to see him again. I went to some lengths of trouble and learned from someone else that he was actually working in a city nearby. It only required a two hour trip. When I sat in the car, I sighed. Why was I always so close to him yet so far apart at the same time?
I finally saw him again.
The reunion wasn’t as awkward as what I had imagined, the words we exchanged were vague and insubstantial. I kept thinking, it had already been so many years since his hate for me sprouted, I wondered if it had lessened over time. Of course, it was impossible to forget, or perhaps, he had already labelled me as a passing traveller in a hurry in his life, or maybe just a person who he wouldn’t even spare a glance at. Anyways, I couldn’t tell there was anything unusual about him when we were together privately. He was very indifferent and had a bit of a vacant look. It was like our relationship was a very normal one of two students who hadn’t seen each other for a long time.
That day I looked around his house, I could tell he lived by himself, it was very clean and neat, just like him. I ranted on about the difficulties of getting a visa to him, they were all words of no importance. He listened in silence, he didn’t care about it a lot but he wasn’t zoning out either. When I finished he asked, “Will you still come back in the future?”
A wave of warmth burst in my heart but instead I ended up unintentionally saying, “There’s more than a fifty percent chance that I won’t come back. I’m finally leaving after much difficulty, it would boring to come back again. This is also why I’ve come to see you, I want to go meet up with all my old friends again. Luckily you were close to me.” He didn’t say anything, his head just hung slightly downwards. I looked at his hair resting against his forehead, it was still a very palpitating sight. I hesitated for a moment before asking quietly, “Do you have a girlfriend?”
He was silent at first, but he still ended up replying, “No, I never got one.”
It didn’t feel right for me to pry further, it would be awkward if some things were discussed too deeply.
My expression was very calm, yet it was a storm of rolling waves on the inside. I looked at the somewhat existent smile on his face and I suddenly felt sad. This person only knew of my cruelness towards him, he didn’t know how many sleepless nights I had over these years from thinking about him all night. He didn’t know how many times I lost all desire to eat and drink for him, nor when I found solace in alcohol. When I had a high fever and talked in my dreams, his name was all I said. The people around me told me all of this. I had once went through thick and thin to find his phone number but stopped after dialling half way through. In conclusion, for him, I lived through many years of life being out of my mind.
Sometimes I also thought, if I ever saw him again I would tell him all of this. I knew he would despise me, detest me, but at least he would know that someone in his life loved him oh so deeply. However, at that very moment, he sat in front of me and I retreated back once again. I didn’t have a shred of courage, this secret will only ever be known by me. I wouldn’t say a word even if I died. I wouldn’t tell a single soul even if I passed away.
He continued to look at me silently, his expression was very complicated, it carried slight depression as if he had something on his mind. I thought that I would be leaving in the end anyways, since I didn’t have the courage to say it out loud then I should leave earlier and not disturb him anymore.
Just when I was getting ready to go, he suddenly called my name softly and said, “Can I ask you a question?”
My heart beat fast and loud as I tried to keep calm, his face suddenly turned red as if he regretted asking the question. Nevertheless, he couldn’t take it back anymore, I only heard him say, “A very long time ago, Xiao Li threw my clothes away. I knew about it the very next day because he told me. Why did you go find them and wash them before returning them to me?” After he finished talking, it was almost like his breathing stopped. At the same time, I thought the sky was going to fall down.
Such a simple sentence, we both understood and explained the consequences clearly, but we both didn’t understand what the other person was thinking. My nature made me conceal, it made me cower back once again.[/hide]
If only he confess….. Thank you
I don’t know what I want from this novel anymore. (。ŏ﹏ŏ)
Thank-you 💔
What.. I’m not hurt anywhere but it’s so painful…… (´;Д;`)
Ugh it hurts. It’s so hard for them to be honest ya
Baka baka laoda😭😭please confess.. Only one chapter left oh it’s going to b bad ending 😰😰😰
I’m reaaaally scared to click the next chapter, but I stacked these chapters for a reason. Ahhh
…..😣😖…. Thanks for the chapter 😘
My heart will forever be broken if this isn’t HE…but seems like it’ll be smashed
Some a backbone!! My gawd….
The guy deserves slaapp if he is still cowering Dx even the other person himself found the courage to open up the old page, why you cower back Dx
This is messing with my feelings 😥
Thanks for translating.
Going through this and the previous chapter I feel like I am reading a very private journal that has been lost in time. How heartbreaking.