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IOTS Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Voice I, even I, I’m sorry. I did not think of something, “I could not hear myself, I just wanted to do it for it. I think I went too far, but I know what I say is not useful. But we will never again see one the other, I hope you’ll forget this unfortunate event. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.

After a long time I came back to things, I thought the words that I said are not people.

His eyes leaned slightly, he whispered: “I just want you to have a happy life in the future.”

We would indulge the same thing. My heart was dead ash when I sat on the train. I’ve heard Pachebel’s Canon a hundred times. My tears stopped racing.

I went back to the bedroom and I slept for a month. So, as I thought I wanted to abandon it, I rarely ran to colleagues, I removed my personal affairs and sat on a plane to the United States. From that moment I lost contact with all the Chinese. It was deliberately made. I was afraid to hear news about her how to get her lover or wedding. In spite of whether it’s wonderful or sweet, I’m ready to live in my fantastic world, so I did not have to make an attack.

After a long time I came back.

But he was no longer there.

He was no longer in this world.

Someone has ever said that homosexual love brings bad results. Even if it’s written by others, some people will always be killed as part of the plan or both will die. So I was angry, I never thought of all the accidents, like a car crash, but when it was my turn, I was just like a dramatic drama in drama He would say he was like a life.

He was not involved in some accident, but in exchange he ended up a healthy life.

Perhaps I thought he had chosen this option, it was not mine. Although the pain and pain of the past year had not gone, he would not finish his life now. All honesty After I fell in love with him, I settled in my little world. On the other hand he was different. The delicate nature of depression was caused by the social behavior of autism. He did not cover this world and the world did not have a place to know it. He never mixed with the outside world. He never thought of putting others into a pure watercolor in an aquarium. I could not deeply understand this function until I remembered all the details of my life that I knew.

But I still could not eliminate these pain. Sometimes I stand to my headstone and I’m thinking of the 18th year to our last leadership. I understood deeply that “sadness is sad”. I think I’ve dried all the tears in my life in one month. I was cowardly, related to other causes, like my seventy moments of foolishness of youth, etc. I was nobody.

But I could not release myself, I got him so innocent, but I finally lost him forever.

I was closer to him when he was in the grave, but at the same time we were the closest. When I was injured, I remembered that someone could say that the world’s most extreme distance is not life and death, separation, but I stood with you. Well, if you do not know that I love you, I mean, That is not that, I suppose that the most distant life is always life and death. If he could stand up, I would have enough courage to say that, but I could never do it. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.

If you love someone, waiting for when you want to express it, God may not give you an opportunity, so you can say it as soon as possible.

I will leave this place and I am ready to start a new life when I will not suffer any further misery. I carefully addressed the things he had belonged as if he wanted to remember or half wanted to remember half of his life he owned

When I brought a book of books, a letter appeared suddenly. The sign in the lower right corner was Li ZhenYun. A very well-known word could never speak again.

There were also small papers. Here is my colleague’s handwriting. With your letter, I put it in between your books. I have something.

It was before my previous day from China, so I wrote it when I went to her. In that day I was not, my colleague left me. He put it firmly into the book, but it was a great joke that luck played me.

My colleague taught me about that and forgotten it. In a state of haptic mind, I embarked on these books in emergencia. It was a small thing that changed the life of a person incorrectly.

The letter contained only a few simple words. If I had another life, I will be alone for always because loved ones do not love me.

The whole letter is written in every universe and the universe …

I had my name

T / N

Thank you for joining this novel here, and I think you liked it. Only with depression and sadness, the real coast has not finished, but there is no sadness and unfailingness. A real tragedy that a person dies alive. More stick around the stick:

Add here: I ran from damn eyes, omfg. For me, this novel of these simple 12 chapters is far more difficult than I can explain. I was diagnosed with a severe depression when I was twelve, and in the last 13 years I was the head of my monster living with it. I sleep, says it’s easy, not so. Depression does not know what you are doing and you do not even know if you are. That’s just how to raise the clear glittering water of the legs and go to the beach with a happy family to notice that the sand disappears and the water is black under your feet. Life may not always be what you want, I’ve learned in the years even if my depression has happened, I’ll talk to my hands to get these dark water. To find something you need.

So, if you just know those who have read it and for people who are in a similar situation, you are not alone. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.



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October 23, 2019 6:43 am

He actually love him too. My heart hurt so much

October 25, 2019 2:44 am


October 27, 2019 3:44 am

I wanted to stop the rape but I’m glad I stuck it out to the end even though I was only rewarded with heartbreak. Balling my eyes out.

Addis, I’m glad you open up to others when you’re feeling down. I hope you find ways to cope with it. It’s not easy at all.

December 5, 2019 6:06 pm

Well, I’ll say it’s what you call Karma, LaoDa. That’s the consequences of the things you’ve done. People should always remember that being young is not a reason to do unforgivable things to others. Rape is Rape. There’s no way to downplay that one. This is the punishment that will haunt him forever even in his last breath.

I bawled my eyes out for this heartbreaking 12 chapters novel than any other novels I’ve read before. It was written beautifully. Thank you for translating this!!

December 11, 2019 10:24 pm

Well thank you for wrecking me at 12 pm!

March 29, 2020 7:29 am

Being in depression state is really bad… My life is full of upside down roller coasters trip… I always try to kill myself but God or my luck always drag me out of the hell life I have… The best decision I stick to my self was decided not to fall inlove again to anyone… but then learn to love myself… coz love always bring me tragedy and always drag me into depression… This story really made me cry a lot… Rape is not a joke…

April 15, 2020 12:20 am

wtf! no! wtf! T_T If only…

April 16, 2020 3:23 am

I am so hurt with their story….huhuhu

April 24, 2020 1:54 pm

Dannnngggg can I get like a major character death tag on here *tears* aiiiyo I’m still crying from MDZS and then I read this my heart *stabby*

April 26, 2020 12:21 am

Thank you for traslating I read the heart of the smith and i see this.. the comment are good look the story wort it to read. Last 2 yr. Ago i suffer depression 2yrs ago i almost lost my life that time my parent also witness that the even my mother crying infort of me after going to other country then return home last 12/25/19 now my depression is going back again i am planing to go to other once again….. if any of you here have facebook please add me marknil Just want to have freinds that can talk… Read more »

April 29, 2020 8:12 am

I cried popcorn tears. . .
I cant….. HOW DO I GET OVER THIS???!!!!
TELL MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

May 7, 2020 6:47 am

i was crying the entire time. i know how it feels. ughhh! 😭 maybe in another lifetime they can be together. such a love deserves so much more. 💞
Thank you! 🙏

May 27, 2020 8:01 am

this is not just a simple fiction. it’s true and valid at certain point. i’m a mental illness patient and i appreciate the message from this novel. fate can be very cruel sometimes but we still can be a little bit more gentle to loved ones. take care and be safe, people 🙂

June 4, 2020 8:44 am

My nose is permanently plugged.

June 19, 2020 6:24 am

I wanna strangle the writer right now….. Grrr. Why?? Why???? Why????
I’m depressed..😥😓😓😰😰😭😭

August 6, 2020 12:41 am

I just recently found this, i never thought bad ending will be this bad, I can’t cry properly!!!, Im reading this while on my office

August 14, 2020 8:30 pm

Actually crying in the club
It was so well written; the emotions, heartbreak, just- overall sadness and angst? That was the shortest but maybe one of the best novels I’ve read. And it’s just so real, and so sad I just, that’s the punishment for what you’ve done, LaoDa.

August 21, 2020 4:40 pm

Okay. Im really sad now. TT_TT

August 21, 2020 4:42 pm

He said half his life that belonged to him but I wonder after reading the letter, it was actually his whole life devoted to him. Regret would have eaten him up. Until his grave.

September 29, 2020 8:26 am

I’m crying so hard, Iike I never had. I really want them to reincarnate and start again…..
I can’t stop thinking, “only if he was true to his heart and said those words” ….
This story has just 12 chapters but the pain is unbearable. Sometimes long words and endless pages are not needed to pull the heart strings.

October 3, 2020 12:38 am

I’m literally crying i wish he had confessed his love to him 😭

December 1, 2020 8:16 am

I’m so sad now after reading this novel 😭 I was expecting a sad end but I didn’t expect this tho…

December 11, 2020 6:19 pm

How can it hurt so much when the tragedy was expected…
I’m glad i kept reading despite my disgust at the rape. The writing is genius and my heart is broken. I don’t know how to come back from this story

Thank you so much for making me discover this amazing work.

December 12, 2020 10:59 am

I have a lump in my throat that won’t go away and tears flowing freely. What a sad yet beautiful story. Thank you for sharing it; also for your excellent translation.

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