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Not finding a gym, Nan HuaiLin went back to the hotel depressed, intending to do sit-ups and push-ups in his room. In fact, as long as he wanted to, fitness could be achieved anywhere, but the gym had a better atmosphere.

As he was walking, his phone suddenly rang. Fei Cheng wanted to talk to him on video call.

Nan HuaiLin was a little nervous for no reason. Once a thought arises, it’s like a weed that “can’t be burned out, but grows again in the spring breeze”. Nan HuaiLin hesitated for a while, and only after he had temporarily pushed down those messy thoughts, did he accept Fei Cheng’s video invitation.

Fei Cheng’s handsome face appeared on the screen, smiling and asking him, “What are you doing, little Lin-zi?”

Nan HuaiLin also smiled, “I just finished eating and wanted to find a gym to exercise, but I couldn’t find one, so I’m going back to the hotel.”

Fei Cheng asked, “Did you have dinner with Shen Chong?”

Nan HuaiLin nodded, “Yes.”

“He just called me,” Fei Cheng paused, “and… You didn’t misunderstand anything, did you?”

Nan HuaiLin suddenly froze. Misunderstood what? Misunderstanding that you like me?

“No, no,” Nan HuaiLin said, stumbling a bit, “I can’t misunderstand anything.”

“Just…” Fei Cheng was suddenly a little embarrassed, which was a very rare thing for him, “I’m fine, I’m fine everywhere, don’t listen to Shen Chong’s nonsense.”

Nan HuaiLin, “…”

What did Shen Chong say? His mind was empty, and he couldn’t remember anything. It was strange, it had just happened.

“Oh, I see.” He responded perfunctorily.

Fei Cheng suddenly held the phone a little farther away, revealing his upper body, “The T-shirt you gave me fits well and is comfortable, I like it a lot.”

“It’s good that you like it.” Nan HuaiLin paused and remembered about the room change, so he asked, “By the way, why do you want to help me upgrade my suite? The crew would think more about it.”

Fei Cheng had already thought of a reasonable explanation, “You are an actor of Ming Xi, and you are also the second male, so what is the point of squeezing with others in a standard room, it looks like the company treats its own actors harshly, so I helped you upgrade to a suite.”

Nan HuaiLin was quiet for a while and said, “Fei Cheng, don’t be so nice to me again, it will make me feel very burdened because I can’t return the same kindness to you and I don’t want to owe anyone else.”

Without giving Fei Cheng a chance to speak, Nan HuaiLin followed with, “Guess who I met at the hotel today?”

Fei Cheng cooperated and asked, “Who?”

Nan HuaiLin said, “My ex-boyfriend.”

Fei Cheng, “…”

Nan HuaiLin deliberately paused for a few seconds and said in a self-deprecating tone, “I thought I was dead to him, but when I saw him again, I was so heartbroken that I couldn’t breathe. It’s like I… I’m still in love with him.”

Whether Fei Cheng was really interested in him or he was just being selfish, Nan HuaiLin didn’t want to complicate his relationship with Fei Cheng. Fei Cheng was too nice, and it must be a particularly wonderful thing to be liked by someone so nice. But he couldn’t afford such a good Fei Cheng, he didn’t deserve him.

He was inferior, but had self-awareness.

If the seven years he spent with Shi Yan taught him anything, it was how important it was to have the right person. The right person meant you were evenly matched, and love was the only way to be equal. His first love had left him bruised and battered, but he was still looking forward to love knocking on his door.

But he did not want to fall in love and be tired, he only wanted to find someone as ordinary as him, a normal relationship. He and Fei Cheng, in the end, were not from the same world. They grew up in very different environments, and after a brief overlap, they were bound to embark on different paths.

Not to mention… He also had a one-night stand with Fei Zheng, how could he have an affair with Fei Zheng’s brother? It was worse than a beast.

Suddenly he felt ridiculous. It was just an unsubstantiated speculation, and he put so much thought into it. There was too much drama.

“So?” Fei Cheng had very little expression on his face, “Are you going to get back with him?”

“How is it possible?! He’s getting married to someone else.” Nan HuaiLin exaggeratedly laughed, “I just think that love is too torturous, the beginning and the end are not up to you. Anyway, I don’t plan to fall in love again anytime soon, I just want to do a good job of filming, while I can still use my youth as capital to make a career as soon as possible.”

Fei Cheng gave a disgusted “Wow”.

Nan HuaiLin said with a smile, “It’s time for you to fall in love, you’ll get sick if you stay single for too long. What do you like? I can help you…”

Fei Cheng interrupted him, “I like, not too tall and not too short, so that  holding them in the arms is just right. They need to have pectoral muscles, abs, a mermaid line, their buttocks need to be round and curvy, skin to be white, eyelashes to be thick, smile to look good, crying to look good, voice to sound good, personality to be super cute, to be able to do laundry and cooking and cleaning, to like to eat my egg noodles… If you see someone like that, make sure you introduce them to me.”

He likes me.

He really likes me.

My heart tingled for no reason, and I even wanted to cry a little.

Nan HuaiLin busily forced a smile to cover up his feelings, “No wonder you’ve been single for so long, you’re asking too much, right? I’ll keep an eye out for you, and I’ll definitely introduce you to the type you like.”

Fei Cheng said with a smirk, “Thank you very much.”

The hotel was close at hand.

Nan HuaiLin said after a short silence, “I’m going to start shooting tomorrow, I’ll be very busy and I may not be able to contact you often. You take care of yourself and don’t get sick.”

Fei Cheng said, “Okay.”

“So…” Nan HuaiLin waved at him, “Bye.”


The video hung up.

Nan HuaiLin stood in the same place, and all kinds of feelings came to his mind, complicated and hard to describe.

That night, Nan HuaiLin didn’t sleep.

He tossed and turned until 2:00 a.m, when he drifted off to sleep.

At seven o’clock in the morning, Nan HuaiLin was woken up by a phone call, first to attend the opening ceremony, then to put on makeup, and then to wait for a long time.

In the crew, waiting for the scene was a normal thing, sometimes from morning until late, not being able to shoot your scene was not uncommon.

Five minutes of shooting, two hours of waiting, he had long been used to it.

At the end of the day, the scene with Nan HuaiLin was finally shot, the reunion scene between Lu JinQin and Lu GuanLan.

Lu JinQin was sitting in a window seat on the second floor of the restaurant, dressed in a dark suit, with long hair like a waterfall and a black mask covering the upper half of his face, setting off the sickly pallor of the lower half.

He gazed at the street below, Lu GuanLan was riding a white horse towards him.

“Brother…” Lu JinQin murmured, his dark ink eyes shone with a layer of moisture and a deep resentment.

Luo Ke gazed at the display screen, secretly a bit smug in his heart.

It was indeed the right choice to let Nan HuaiLin play Lu JinQin.


For a costume drama, three months of shooting time was actually very tight. After the start of the shooting, the three teams, A, B and C, were working at the same time, and the intense shooting made Nan HuaiLin have no time to think about anything else.

Fei Cheng still called him occasionally and talked to him like a friend without any words that crossed the line, and Nan HuaiLin was relieved and felt a slight sense of loss.

The only thing that bothered him was that his food consumption had suddenly increased dramatically, eating more than twice as much as before, but strangely enough, even though he had no time to exercise he did not gain any weight, but rather ate more and more but was still thin, making Man Tianzhu very worried about whether there was something wrong with his intestines.

In the blink of an eye, two months had passed.

This day, Nan HuaiLin had to shoot a heavy scene, Lu JinQin had to take off his mask and show his true face, and then identify with Lu GuanLan as his brother.

He got up at six in the morning to put on makeup and was so sleepy that he couldn’t open his eyes.

“Nan,” Man Tianzhu held up her phone to him, “look at me.”

Nan HuaiLin opened his eyes to look over, Man Tianzhu took a picture and then put the phone away.

This was one of the daily photos she had been insisting on for two months, but the photos had not yet been put together.

Nan HuaiLin finished his makeup when Shen Chong arrived late.

While waiting for Shen Chong to finish his makeup, Nan HuaiLin read his lines with the script, although he already knew them by heart.

It was after eight o’clock when the shooting started.

It was the height of summer in July, Hengdian was already hot like a steamer, and they were shooting a winter scene, three layers of ancient costumes on their bodies, to the sun, they started sweating instantly, but the good thing was that there were two blowers blowing on them left and right, at least their faces were cool.

Nan HuaiLin and Shen Chong stood at the edge of the cliff and took their positions.

Once the board was set, the shooting began.

After a long line, Lu JinQin was finally unmasked.

The wind was strong, his clothes were flying, and his long hair was dancing around. Nan HuaiLin raised his hand and slowly took off the mask he had been wearing for two months, revealing his entire face.

At this moment, not only Shen Chong, who was standing opposite him, but all the staff present were stunned by this image.

This originally unattractive boy, when did he become so good-looking? It was like a new person, with the ancient costume look, he could only be described as beautiful, three parts demon and seven parts immortal, beautiful to the heart.

Nan HuaiLin did not notice the difference around him, he was still immersed in the role, hooked up a sarcastic smile, but his voice was soft, “Brother, I am JinQin ah, you can’t even recognize me?”

Shen Chong was still immersed in the beauty blast, completely unable to return to his senses, let alone answer the lines.


Nan HuaiLin waited for a while, Shen Chong did not respond, and did not hear the director shout, “CUT”, he turned his head to look over in doubt, but in a glance saw Fei Cheng standing under the sunshade.


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October 25, 2021 5:43 pm

*screams silently coz neighbors might report*

Oh wow. Nan HuaiLin! 🥰

October 25, 2021 6:10 pm

So excited for next chapter!!!

October 25, 2021 6:45 pm

Oh HuaiLin, don’t do that to yourself; it doesn’t matter if you come from different worlds, what matters is how people care for and treat each other. You work hard, respect people not positions and don’t sponge off others. Why would you think you are undeserving? This character, honestly! Although yes, I can see him believing he’d slept with Fei Zhen being a large problem. The truth needs to come out… but how?!
Can’t wait for more!
Thanks for translating and editing.

October 25, 2021 10:47 pm

Sister Zhuuuuuuuu!!! The comparison! Please, show the comparison!!! If his beauty blast was powerfull enough to make everyone around them speechless and stunned, he must have really changed.

I bet him eating more but not gaining weight and his looks improving it’s all because of the shelled buns. Ahhhh, I can’t wait for more!!!

Thank you for the chapter!!!

October 26, 2021 8:58 pm

Wow!!!! Omg!! NHL changed so much! Ppl were just stunned!! He is such a great actor and works so hard! He deserves the best! I want him to see he is worth it! But he realized FC actually likes him! He was so upfront about it! FC is the best! ❤️❤️

October 31, 2021 6:06 pm

I hope his new found beauty lasts and doesn’t fade after the you-know-what happens. He deserves all the chances at being a star actor and his looks fading back to normal would be a blow.

December 14, 2021 9:25 am

So heartbreaking when NHL doesn’t think he’s good enough for FC! 😭

But, love love LOVE the big reveal when he takes off his mask!!!! *fangirl scream*

March 6, 2022 1:26 pm

Thank you for the next chapter. {Snicker}

July 14, 2022 3:58 am

I’ve never been this invested while reading a novel for quite a time now… how I miss feeling this way! I can’t stop reading ahhh I love the flow of the storyyy

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