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IOTS Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Voice I, even I, I’m sorry. I did not think of something, “I could not hear myself, I just wanted to do it for it. I think I went too far, but I know what I say is not useful. But we will never again see one the other, I hope you’ll forget this unfortunate event. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.

After a long time I came back to things, I thought the words that I said are not people.

His eyes leaned slightly, he whispered: “I just want you to have a happy life in the future.”

We would indulge the same thing. My heart was dead ash when I sat on the train. I’ve heard Pachebel’s Canon a hundred times. My tears stopped racing.

I went back to the bedroom and I slept for a month. So, as I thought I wanted to abandon it, I rarely ran to colleagues, I removed my personal affairs and sat on a plane to the United States. From that moment I lost contact with all the Chinese. It was deliberately made. I was afraid to hear news about her how to get her lover or wedding. In spite of whether it’s wonderful or sweet, I’m ready to live in my fantastic world, so I did not have to make an attack.

After a long time I came back.

But he was no longer there.

He was no longer in this world.

Someone has ever said that homosexual love brings bad results. Even if it’s written by others, some people will always be killed as part of the plan or both will die. So I was angry, I never thought of all the accidents, like a car crash, but when it was my turn, I was just like a dramatic drama in drama He would say he was like a life.

He was not involved in some accident, but in exchange he ended up a healthy life.

Perhaps I thought he had chosen this option, it was not mine. Although the pain and pain of the past year had not gone, he would not finish his life now. All honesty After I fell in love with him, I settled in my little world. On the other hand he was different. The delicate nature of depression was caused by the social behavior of autism. He did not cover this world and the world did not have a place to know it. He never mixed with the outside world. He never thought of putting others into a pure watercolor in an aquarium. I could not deeply understand this function until I remembered all the details of my life that I knew.

But I still could not eliminate these pain. Sometimes I stand to my headstone and I’m thinking of the 18th year to our last leadership. I understood deeply that “sadness is sad”. I think I’ve dried all the tears in my life in one month. I was cowardly, related to other causes, like my seventy moments of foolishness of youth, etc. I was nobody.

But I could not release myself, I got him so innocent, but I finally lost him forever.

I was closer to him when he was in the grave, but at the same time we were the closest. When I was injured, I remembered that someone could say that the world’s most extreme distance is not life and death, separation, but I stood with you. Well, if you do not know that I love you, I mean, That is not that, I suppose that the most distant life is always life and death. If he could stand up, I would have enough courage to say that, but I could never do it. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.

If you love someone, waiting for when you want to express it, God may not give you an opportunity, so you can say it as soon as possible.

I will leave this place and I am ready to start a new life when I will not suffer any further misery. I carefully addressed the things he had belonged as if he wanted to remember or half wanted to remember half of his life he owned

When I brought a book of books, a letter appeared suddenly. The sign in the lower right corner was Li ZhenYun. A very well-known word could never speak again.

There were also small papers. Here is my colleague’s handwriting. With your letter, I put it in between your books. I have something.

It was before my previous day from China, so I wrote it when I went to her. In that day I was not, my colleague left me. He put it firmly into the book, but it was a great joke that luck played me.

My colleague taught me about that and forgotten it. In a state of haptic mind, I embarked on these books in emergencia. It was a small thing that changed the life of a person incorrectly.

The letter contained only a few simple words. If I had another life, I will be alone for always because loved ones do not love me.

The whole letter is written in every universe and the universe …

I had my name

T / N

Thank you for joining this novel here, and I think you liked it. Only with depression and sadness, the real coast has not finished, but there is no sadness and unfailingness. A real tragedy that a person dies alive. More stick around the stick:

Add here: I ran from damn eyes, omfg. For me, this novel of these simple 12 chapters is far more difficult than I can explain. I was diagnosed with a severe depression when I was twelve, and in the last 13 years I was the head of my monster living with it. I sleep, says it’s easy, not so. Depression does not know what you are doing and you do not even know if you are. That’s just how to raise the clear glittering water of the legs and go to the beach with a happy family to notice that the sand disappears and the water is black under your feet. Life may not always be what you want, I’ve learned in the years even if my depression has happened, I’ll talk to my hands to get these dark water. To find something you need.

So, if you just know those who have read it and for people who are in a similar situation, you are not alone. This is the text we are feeding sites using robots to steal off our site yet giving us no credit. To readers, look up Exiled Rebels Scanlations to get the real version.

http://ibpf.org/resource/list-international-suicide-hotlines

http://www.joyfulheartfoundation.org/learn/sexual-assault-and-rape/resources/hotlines-and-more-information

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grassbloop
grassbloop
April 5, 2018 7:38 am

I can’t say I feel extremely melancholy right now. I’m sure in a couple of hours it’ll truly set in for me but fate can truly be cruel.

yunxjae
yunxjae
April 14, 2018 5:34 pm

If only. If only LaoDa doesn’t left.
Maybe maybe he can survive.
If only T_____T

HanNweNyein
HanNweNyein
September 1, 2018 10:54 am

I have been warned. I have been seriously warned. Yet I went and read this novel only to suffer and cry a bucket of tears.

lil_hamster
lil_hamster
September 17, 2018 10:41 pm

It’s hurt… it’s hurt so much that I cannot stop crying…

“If you love someone, you should say it as soon as possible because once you wait until you want to express it, perhaps god won’t give you the chance to.”

true enough someone that I love so much already gone and I didn’t have the chance to said how I feel for him, the last 2 chapters hit me so hard that I’ve been crying none stop…
LaoDa regret is like something that haunt me since 8 years ago…

thank you for translating this short novel…

punchpartea
punchpartea
October 2, 2018 6:35 am

Thank you so much for translating this.

WhenInRome
WhenInRome
October 6, 2018 1:03 am

Thank you for translating this novel. Men should really read these types of books. Rape is a moment of pleasure but it is a lifetime of pain for the victim. For the rapist, no amount of regret could ever repair your conscience (if you have one). The MC only learned of the magnitude of pain he caused to such a defenseless kid until it was too late. What pisses me off is the MC lived his life without consequences except for his own feelings of guilt. It is a literary example of how life really is for rape victims that… Read more »

Yao
Yao
October 14, 2018 2:54 pm

To be honest I did not read the complete novel the rape is not my type so I only read the 7th principle and 2 final and I feel more bad for the boy who died than for the one who is still alive and the letter is a punishment

Sun ita
Sun ita
November 30, 2018 9:23 pm

Its so sad. I can’t still believe theres no happy ending.
Love is love right? If you can’t express it to the other person, (where you can do it), then theres no meaning in loving someone. Its a extreme tragedy truly. Being so close, and able to obtain that love, yet letting your own self drive it away….extremely heart breakingly sad, and (sob sob). Once true love goes away, the longing in the heart becomes stronger and all the regrets surface…truly regrettable

Nobody
Nobody
December 2, 2018 11:25 pm

Someone needs to become an author and make the MC magical go back to the past, or let him died from a car accident and got reincarnated into a different era/world with Li ZhenYun’s soul in that era/world. It would be an additional bonus if Li ZhenYun receives his past life memories as well.

Zoey Young
December 27, 2018 6:48 pm

Oh my god ….i’m speechless … why fate so cruel sometimes . You are the real coward laoda 😢

koo
koo
January 12, 2019 12:23 am

Im crying in the corner ma room

Rawr
Rawr
January 16, 2019 9:55 pm

This was really good! I masochistically love angst. Where can I find more like this?

Ame-chan
February 5, 2019 4:36 am

I’m bawling my eyes out and I can’t make a sound because my roommate is sleeping 😭😭😭 I was hoping for a happy one 😢

analayneana
analayneana
February 9, 2019 5:28 pm

It took two freaking years for me to build up the courage to read this again.
It still hurts. The worst part is, even knowing how it ends, even with knowing nothing will change, there’s still a little bit of hope echoing in your brain.
This chapter got published on my sister’s birthday, and I’m reading it again (for the first time) on my brother’s. What are the odds of that! 😖😖😖😖

Selina Kandel
Selina Kandel
March 9, 2019 2:56 pm

I am stuck in the sentence “if i had another lifeb i would still be lonely for lifetime because the the person i love doesnt love me ” 😩😩 reading it again and again…. I am crying so badly
😢😢😢

Annchan
Annchan
March 22, 2019 9:16 am

When I read it, I hope to get a happy ending. But reality hits me. A hard one. And really hurts…. *sniff

JamandButter
JamandButter
April 6, 2019 3:01 am

It’s so disheartening and heartbreaking knowing that they could’ve had a potentially better and happier life if they told each other their feelings earlier. I can’t stop crying. ;-;
Thank you so much for translating this.

rens
rens
June 3, 2019 7:30 pm

not sure what i was expecting but damn this hit me hard

NemuriHime
NemuriHime
August 12, 2019 8:23 pm

If only he got that sign when they both sang together. I suspect the victim loved him before that bad time happened, since he’s the only one got different treatment from others. LZY was too shy and hurt after to confessed his feeling and LaoDa looks indifferent outside. Sigh….

Liaanarose
Liaanarose
August 15, 2019 7:41 am

The only thing I can tell about this story is it’s….painfully beautiful. It just slaps right into your face that in life every choice comes with a consequence. While one person was a coward who was not strong enough to let his feelings out because of guilt, the other was just quietly enduring all the situations thrown at him while dying a little every day. Never did the former realise that the ultimate apology LZY needed was his confession and absolute support, he just comfortably started to live in his shell of fantasy. I just feel that life always gives… Read more »

Bel-Ying
Bel-Ying
August 29, 2019 7:47 am

This story really made my chest feel heavy and pained (especially the last 2 Chapters). I even cried like it was my own love, that ended – what never happened before. If they could only have talked earlier and more, maybe everything would have come to an better end… it makes me so sad but really- this story had so much truth in it, I will probably remember it for my whole life. To not wait and speak your mind properly.
Really thank you for the story and the translation!

erika
erika
August 31, 2019 1:34 pm

My feelings are shit! Oh shit shit shit. I hate this waaaaah. I was expecting that they will be together. I think i cant forget this pain. I need to read another story to forget this pain

Haruki Natsuyu
Haruki Natsuyu
September 28, 2019 1:07 am

This is why i hate tragediesssssss!!!! Aaaaaaaaa my heart!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 im more sad of this than losing my job. Wuwuwu 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i have to read fluff RN!

dragonmarriedtoaphoenix
dragonmarriedtoaphoenix
October 15, 2019 6:31 am

I wasn’t given any sort of warning at all. And in the end, I bawled like a toddler having been spanked for being naughty. It was yesterday when I finished reading this, coincidentally, it was the day another Kpop artist passed away. I was truly devastated. This is a beautiful and poignant story…but I couldn’t help but wish that it ended well for both of them. For LZY to take his life because he felt he wasn’t loved at all when in fact he was was truly unbearable. In no way am I standing up for the MC, because I… Read more »

Kiiro
Kiiro
October 15, 2019 4:53 pm

Imagine loving a person so dearly that you cannot put it into words, knowing that they are lonely and wanting to help, you send them sweet messages and lastly, you confess that you love them. Then, not even a week later, you hear that they killed themselves. You did not even see them again before it happened. You only knew that they said to you that they loved another person. You lose a pillar that made you world colorful, a motivation that kept you going. But you also know that they liked you, even if they themselves did not know,… Read more »

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